February synonyms.

It's been a while.

Definitely years.

It kinda forced me into admitting that I can't consciously recall your face & the sound of your voice quite accurately anymore.

It was vivid while it lasted,

I actually thought to myself, I haven't heard this voice in a long time.

& you repeated yourself.

In retrospect it's probably my subconscious confirming that it couldn't have gotten this wrong.

But trying to relive the memory of it right now,

Feels like I'm staring straight into the sun,

Or recalling the sound of wind blowing.

After 14 years,

You are now intangible.

& although I know if I go poking around the world wide web I would definitely find a thing or two,

I also know that I actually prefer it this way.

2020S, I got no complains (yet)

Penning this down here just for reference purposes.

Look at us, that was one heck of a rebound.

Day 5 of MCO 2.0, 4000+ new cases just yesterday,

But if I zoom down into my microscopic world, I'm doing great.

MCO started just as I was finishing my menses,

So I was in a fantastic place mentally & hormonally.

Made the resolution of tackling one major task daily, & also meeting my steps target.

Day 5 & I'm on track.

& even though today I have been procrastinating my actual task (cleaning the master bedroom & bath), but I have addressed pretty much all of those annoying little to do's related to gardening,

Like repotting my pothos into the low terra cotta pot,

Getting rid of the dead cranberry hibiscus, repotting the zinnia into its pot, & rearranging & tidying my balcony,

& just the regular watering, fertilizing, & sprucing up what needs to be spruced.

I can now sit back, type, dig into a cheesecake, & just enjoy the view lol.

As for meeting my daily steps target thingy,

I have been uncharacteristically excited about jogging around the house.

Like literally, going on a slow jog from my living room, circling around bedrooms, into the kitchen, & around again.

Kinda fun seeing my fitness app showing about 30% of my daily steps as running.

Of course once I take it outdoors I just die,

But there's just something about a tight space that helps me maintain my pace better.

We'll see how this streak lasts though.

Tomorrow I'll be resuming my ganti puasa, the usual Isnin Khamis for two weeks,

& by then we'll be well into the PMS zone

Sooo yeah.

I'm just glad I'm at a point where I kinda fully understand my body & its cycles.

The whens & whys of binge eating, demotivation, bloatedness & weight gain, etc.

I guess 30's ain't that bad.