Adoptees.

Remember when I had those anxiety about 'my heart not being able to expand to love another person' both times I got pregnant?
Well now I officially love other people's kids.
My 10 nieces & nephews (10?! God that makes me feel old) are of course a given,
I ace at singlehandedly chaperoning 4 kids at the padang now blowsnails.
& I'm still trying to get over Hamzah sucking his thumb lol.
But I'm talking about stranger's kids.
Instagram kids from halfway across the world kind of stranger's kids.
My instagram has a funny sense of humour,
It keeps on feeding me random people's account who has multiple babies.
I'm talking triplets, quadruplets, quintuplets, god knows what they call them beyond that.
So I officially follow chloeandbeans, this Australian chick who was 6 kids (aged 4, 3, 2, & 1 year old triplets I'm not making this shit up).
I can confidently tell you all of their names (yeap I know which triplet is which), their favorite colour, favorite food, medical history, birth weight, you name it.
& then there's the Tates,
Who also has 6 kids but I think the eldest is 10 & the youngest triplets are 1.5 years old.
My soft spot is Hayes,
Who has the most ridiculous sad-chill expression I just lose it everytime I come across his picture.
He was also diagnosed with brain cancer late last year, & just got through 7 months of chemo.
Like, I legit check up on him on both his parents' accounts everyday.
It's tate28 & savannat8 btw, they're both smoking hot & were highschool sweethearts, & juggled raising half a dozen kids AND staying at the hospital with Hayes,
MAD RESPECT.
So yeah, some insight to the world of a mom.
I live my life worrying the kids roll off the bed in their sleep, worry they get diaper rash if they sleep in too long every morning, worry they don't get enough nutrition because they only want to eat junk, worry they watch YouTube too much they'll turn stupid,
Then I zone out to instagram & worry about childhood cancer & premature babies.
But then you come across a video of little Pearlie (see rohanandbeans) dozing off to sleep with her cheeks pink as usual & blond eyelashes fluttering,
& you'd be mad to not want to promise her everything is good in this world.

Droolpads drama.

I just realized the droolpads I got for free when I bought my kokadi flip,
Which I gave away for free when I sold my kokadi flip,
Was made from a Paxbaby wrap.
I'm annoyed by how grumpy I am.
I never really saw the point in wearing droolpads so there really isn't a point in keeping those droolpads.
& it's not like Paxbaby is a super hype brand that I ship or anything.
But it's different. It's unexpected.
I always just assumed it was a kokadi, or a Lenny lamb, judging by it's pattern,
So I never bothered to find out what they were exactly.
I never appreciated them,
Looked more closely,
Touched & admired the weave.
I didn't even take proper pictures for memories' sake.
I used to own a piece of Paxbaby & I didn't even realize it pfft.
Aaanyways,
We've been staying in the new house for a few weeks now.
Alhamdulillah it's been good.
Settling in well.
But I'm not in the mood for stories yet.
Paxbaby. Sheesh.