Trolls & Vampires.

I was taken by surprise after watching a movie called 'Newness' yesterday,
When the end credits rolled with a 'For Anton'.
He wasn't in the movie, but it was directed by the same guy who did Like Crazy.
& I thought it was really sweet of him.
For Antons really get to me somehow.
I don't know why he's so dear to me, but he's everywhere.
Anyway, naturally tonight I'm up after everyone's asleep & going through Trollhunters stuff.
It's good to know there are people who are affected by him too.
Who holds on to his voice, who cried listening to his Hero speech at the end of season 3.
(Which I really really really want to keep a copy of, but like why isn't anyone posting that specific scene on YouTube? No I'm too lazy to go record it myself like I did with Newness yesterday)
I'm at the risk of going back outside & rewatching the whole series again right now honestly.
But what got me here instead is reading many comments on how Jim's transformation into a troll left them feeling a sense of loss,
& it transported me right back to being 17 & reading Darren Shan for the first time & crying buckets from the moment he started bidding farewell to his family until his funeral was over.
I cannot describe how devastated I was that he knew for a fact he's never seeing his family again, & leaving with a stranger who's a freaking vampire, & he himself is a vampire & it's irreversible.
I was almost sick with grief.
But that all happened in book 1 of a 12-part series,
& even though Darren went through major crap in perhaps each book that follows,
You can't help but feeling that his sacrifice was worth it, at the end of it you don't even remember he was human to begin with.
& I guess that's what's missing with Trollhunters,
We don't get the part where he faces the repercussions of his choice, of growing into the person he was forced to become, & then becoming a better person because of it.
Maybe instead of watching Trollhunters again, I should just read Darren Shan, yet again, for closure.
Anyways, if you're lost after reading this, it's probably coz I'm typing this out simply because I can't talk to Ikhwan right now, who'd be so pissed if I woke him up just to talk about Anton lol.