Three zero peeps.

Tahun ni tak up lagi wishlist birthday.
Mana boleh miss weh,
Mana tau ada pembaca setia yang nak bagi present tahun ni kan?
Lol honestly sometime earlier this month I had a whole philosophical post drafted in my head of what non-monetary blessings I wanted for my birthday,
But for the life of me I can't remember shit anymore.
Instead I'm gonna talk about my version of maturity.
I'm getting fat. My clothes don't fit quite as nicely anymore, & the scales tell me the same thing too, so it's a fact.
I told myself once I hit the six zero I'd start working out but my goddd working out means more clothes to wash everyday,
& honestly the weather isn't permitting too isn't it?
It's either too hot or it's raining lol.
So, Imara just shared with me a website where you can get gym passes,
She just went for a class in a new gym in Taman Tun which is so pretty,
So I thought that's a good idea, get me gym passes for my birthday.
Then my subconscious starting asking things like is it a mixed class & how would I feel, say, zumba-ing in front of guys?
Of course I mind.
I don't feel comfortable dancing or doing things that attract attention in public anymore.
You can be covered up in a telekung but it you start moving your body, it just doesn't look right.
& I'm not saying all this to be self-righteous.
No, I do feel limited.
I haven't been to the salon for the longest time because the two muslimah salons in my area I don't quite prefer,
& now I can't even bring myself to attend a free zumba session at Durian King.
I didn't even notice when my moral compass started to shift.
& we've strayed so far off the original topic of the post lol.
I've already told Ikhwan I want a biography of a one-and-a-half year old boy who died of cancer,
& I can't think of anything else I absolutely had to have.
I saw a History of Magic book some time ago & that's pretty cool.
I don't mind new clothes,
New walking shoes to replace the sketchers I bought before going to Sydney dulu,
Ooohhh I want a new couch for my house!
Ask me please, we've already picked out exactly which one we want from Ikea lol.
Ok dah I gotta go cook, seriously.
Yeah, I don't mind getting a live-in cook too.
Kthxbye

Playlist.

You know that video compilation of songs from our high school days that's going around Facebook?
"Songs former emo kids will always remember" is the headline.
Yeah almost every song is a vivid memory from somewhere,
As if my entire music collection isn't enough,
So it's not a wise decision to watch for a third time (I think).
But going through the comments section I found an even better headline,
"Songs that got you through high school because you didn't know what real problems were then"
Lolll now I'm kinda excited to go look all of it up & build a playlist.
Oh & love how so many people were pissed that The Used didn't make it into the list.
People, don't. Let's keep The Used that way.

Added:
Casually talking about music & then realizing I probably had these songs & so much more in the corrupted hard drive of my old laptop.
Le sigh.

Added again later:

So, 2 nights ago we finally watched Baby Driver,

& instead of being left craving for Ansel (yeah, sorta craving for Gus but as mentioned above, my copy of the movie perished along with my old laptop & I'm too lazy to act on it),

I was left craving for the whole of Nerdfighteria.

Finally has access to the TV & played the first Vlogbros video on their page,

& I have an existential crisis. From both of them.

Hank was talking about sidewalks, & John about bread, & I'm left glazed-eyed & staring into space lol.