wedding Bells :D

MATT & GAIA HAVE BROKEN UP.

broken up people.

done!

over!

aaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrgggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

i need to go find a ring so i can propose to him in singapore.

we're so getting married, i can feel it.

i mean, why else would they break up just before (well, not just before la. but he needs the time to bounce back before getting into a relationship with me kan? hehehe) the concert that i am attending.

oh Fate. i love you!

Shades of Gris

so if you notice, there's an animal living on my sidebar. found this application thing (abowman) on syam's blog. his are fish. & naturally i got attracted to it, & visited the site. but i fell in love with this hamster. mainly because before i started rearing fish in my room, i originally wanted to rear hamsters. but my mum didn't agree to it due to my skin condition. very sensitive you see. the slightest irritation (even a tiny fluff of habuk) will trigger a rashes attack. uh huh, sad, i know. the only positive thing out of this is i get prescribed legal drugs (^^,)v but that's beside the point.

so yes.. meet Gris (it's French for Grey). do feed it (i still haven't decided if it's a girl or a boy). just click in it's cage & a red-colour ball (which is it's food) will fall out. serious comel kan? you can customize the colour of EVERYTHING! yes promote, promote :)

oh i love my virtual hamster!

like a fat person squeezed into a tiny (pink ego) box.

i'm honestly feeling light-headed. don't ask me why. i'm struggling REAL hard to keep all these feelings in check. don't want to go babbling around only to jinx my own self. haha yes i believe in these things.

good thing i'm sort of an OCD. currently, i have about 3 different sets of to-do list, & 2 sets of things-to-pack list. & i'm keeping myself busy with assignments.

gosh this is absofuckinglutely mind blasting!

haaa selalunya aku tak buat kerja-kerja batak macam ni. tapi disebabkan aku sayang tahap dewa kat minah ni, jadi aku pun jadilah batak sekejap.


selamat datang ke dunia blogger, cik Nur Dzulaikha Abd Munir a.k.a Kuang.
hahahahaha sorry la aku berkenan sungguh kat nama samaran ayah kau :P


walaupun kau dah lama menceburkan diri dalam bidang ni tapi disebabkan aku baru tau kau ada blog (sampai hati baru nak bagitau) & baru link kau, jadi selamat datang ye perempuan.

dah. gi main jauh-jauh.

as the 3-year mark approaches.

salam, kucup tangan kanan, kucup tangan kiri.
kucup pipi kanan, kucup pipi kiri.

& lastly, a hug so tight.
eh, kenapa macam kurus ni?

hooooii~ nak pergi mana tuuuu?

every morning when i wake up, the first thing i do is try to remember any dreams that i had the night before (that is, if bila bangun tak teringat mimpi tu. 'cause selalu jugak bangun in the middle of a dream so the details are still vivid). this morning was no different. the only difference is the jolt i felt when i remember that dream of you. with such clarity.

& even weirder is where i seek comfort. 'cause i kind of never felt comfortable talking about you to him. but today, he's the only person that made sense.

thank you for making me feel like this is a gift, & not a burden. thank you for comforting me. 'cause we all know i don't deserve it, especially from you. thank you.

apaneyyy

kenapa malam ni perasaan rindu meluap-luap?
i think it's the anticipation of what next week will bring.
hati-hati, Lya.
ini Perasaan Pelik-Pelik category paling bahaya.
subseksyen Mengundang Masalah.

shushh.. go find something to occupy you time.

kehadapan Perasaan Pelik-Pelik,

sila nyah dari sini.

sekian, terima kasih.

"hari ni you tak buat blog?" dia tanya.

so.. this post is for you sayang :)

& this is why i look forward to Glojy with the girls :D

after wan & i crapped about how we've decided it's lin who's going to be pushed straight sideways (don't ask!):

lin: but it's unfair 'cause there's 3 of us so it's always two against one

but this is how wan interpreted it:

lin: ... so it's always two against wan

& so:

wan: but tonight it's not two against wan, it's two against you!

TAKE THAT LIN!

hahahahahahahahahahahaha

must write this down for future reference.

LOVE jepp's latest post titled "Salam Sejahtera" (150110 2011hours).

terbaik.

honestly, who's this mysterious reader from Oslo? i'm curious. really really curious. drop a comment, please? pretty please. i'm dying out of curiosity.

oh yeah.. hello there :) & thanx :))

terima kasih daun keladi.

abang sharizal of imigresen PBD, we loves you very strong!

no ini bukan post kosong semata-mata ;P

menstruasi.

dream setlist ('cause i'm bored).

(in no exact order)

1. map of the problematique
2. citizen erased
3. mk ultra
4. hysteria (with or without interlude is fine)
5. resistance
6. the whole of exogenesis (ye, pergi mampos & berangan hilyah)
7. screenager
8. ruled by secrecy
9. microcuts
10. newborn
11. sunburn
12. recess
13. shine
14. supermassive blackhole
15. city of delusion
16. guiding light

ok i've lost my muse. hahah how ironic.

gosh time please move faster 'cause i'm itching to get ready for singapore lest i forget all the things i need to do/settle/pack.

Pergi

"Sayu terpisah
hikayat indah kini hanya tinggal sejarah
berhembus angin rindu
begitu nyamannya terhidu wangian kasihmu
hujan lebat mencurah kini
bagaikan tiada henti
kaulah laguku kau irama terindah
tak lagi kudengari
kau pergi.. pergi..
sepi tanpa kata
terdiam dan kaku tak daya kau kulupa
apa pun kata mereka
biarkan kenangan berbunga di ranting usia"

terkelu sebentar di tengah-tengah rasta. mula-mula tak faham kenapa teringat. ada moment kah? or was this the song he sang to me? argh tak ingat tak ingat. text. got a reply. & terdiam sekejap. sekarang baru faham. eventhough the pain i feel may differ from the pain you feel, it's pain nonetheless. i feel mine, you feel yours. i felt yours, you felt mine too. & for that i love you.

wouldn't want this any other way, i swear to god.

sayang i miss you.
i can't bear the distance.
but i love the way you're handling my moodswings.
i love you.
i know we'll pull through.

credits to postsecret.blogspot.com

all in all.

hari ni balik dari uitm dengan penuh moodynya lantas melalak kepada encik ridhwan kerana first class subject ECO556 kami sudah dipaksa buat tutorial 6 soalan addmaths ye, tuan-tuan & puan-puan. ulang suara, soalan addmaths.

yang aku tau, tengok dalam syllabus ada perkataan "differentiation" pun mata aku dah berpinar. low blood terus! horhor.

anyways.. haihh posts masih overdue. gahh!

in short, ridhwan coming down for new year. tengok cirque du freak (yang horrible!) on the 31st then imaginarium of doctor parnassus (yang terbaik! tapi depressing sebab rindu heath *sobs*) on the first. fireworks, maulana, sleepover(s), berjemaah (hue :') masih angau sampai hari ni ye sayang).

lin's bbq. kacau-ing adik (yang telah mandi awal-awal sebab tunggu aku datang bawak buku darren shan :P). izzul. washing up. family time i say :D

haa apa lagi ye? oh! new year's resolution:
to be thankful for every split second that i'm still alive

sebab it doesn't take a year, a month, or even a day to lose either someone you love or your own life. all it takes is one split second.

& with that being said, i want to thank

• my immediate family (abah, mama, yaya, fai, apis, layla, kakgayah & kakmilah)
• ridhwan
• imara, lin, wan & ika
  
• izzul, dan, naqib
• (& ofcourse, just because it's over doesn't mean it's forgotten) pear
• (oh & juga, most definitelylah kan) muse (misters bellamy, howard & wolstenholme)
  

for being the reason i'm so thankful of being alive. for so much happiness & laughter. for tolerating the tears, tantrums & whining. for everything.

i love yous!

long overdue posts. of 2009 & the new year. of lin's bbq. of having the boyfriend over. of pictures.

but why the heavy heart? why such bad feelings tonight?

haihh.. soon, soon. i promise.