http://community.livejournal.com/ontd_muse/320994.html#cutid1


another link worth clicking on when in need of laughter :D




by the way, a certain aurora borealis' (someone on PMT) signature is funnnnnny as hell.

"i travelled half the world to say
you are my μ"

hahahahahahahah which is TRUE! hahahahah ouhkay i'm positively high.

cross-pollination

sebab aku tak reti tulis music notes (dan juga malas nak carik), aku akan tulis bunyi nya.



teng teng teng, teng teng teng, teng teng teng, teng teng teng...



over & over & over & over & over again dari pagi tadi, all through MKT420 paper, sampai balik rumah, makan, tidur, bangun balik & sekarang depan computer cuba untuk study HRM533 pulak.

can't freaking get it out of my head.



... rise above the crowd, & break through toxic clouds. breach the outer sphere. the edge of all our fears rests with you. we are counting on you. it's up to you...



nah. don't know why this picture looks so cute. maybe sebab the focus is on domdom kot. hee :P (sekali-sekala cheat on matt with his own band member, apa salahnya kan?)

mereka yang menghasilkan ketenangan

dah. aku sudah tidak suka waktu malam.

kan seronok kalau dalam hidup kita ni ada orang yang boleh bagi semua jawapan kat kita. no more questions. no more doubts & what ifs. dia akan guide kita ke path yang betul. what to do in life, who to love, when, where, how. semua terjawab.

then there wouldn't be mistakes. wouldn't be people who cheats on their partner in pursue of "something more". wouldn't be uneducated people & drop outs. mesti semua yang kita buat berjaya. mesti semua orang gembira. mesti tiada war.

kan seronok kalau macam tu?

juga seronok kalau ubat anti-depression & pil tidur dijual seperti gula-gula 20sen.

note to (older) self: nanti bila dah berkeluarga & beranak-pinak, don't nag to your kids. especially when you've been out the whole day, & si anak baru balik rumah, seeing you for the first time that day. sebab it just makes the anak feels like going out again & never come back.

juga, stop looking out for things that are out of order, or isn't done. instead, give praises for what has been done.

shall i compare thee to a summer's day?

sebab you made it sound like it was entirely my fault (without even saying it out loud).

sebab even though you're sad & angry, you still had good thoughts for me (atau mungkin sekadar ayat power?).

sebab the beginning of verse pertama "In Your World".

sebab the ending of verse pertama "Anna Molly".

mungkinkah sebab ia sudah lama; routine, hambar?

mungkinkah sebab ia baru; out of the ordinary, exciting?

honestly:
i'm a spoilt attention-seeking brat.
i really shouldn't be comparing.
i should just start studying.

this itch.

a glimpse at the clock tells me that it's 24 hours since we sat in that small gazebo-thing, freezing our asses off despite being huddled close together. fog is indeed such a beautiful thing right? where we were was just simply beautiful. & i'd give everything i have to be there now, doing to same thing, with the same people, though maybe wearing an extra thick sweater. because i hate the things i think of when i'm alone. i hate the things i miss when i'm in complete silence. i hate where my mind wanders & how it makes me feel. god. my finals haven't even started & i'm already suffering from insomnia. sleeping pills, anyone, please?

of seeing & hearing heath ledger again

emotionally shaken : when you can literally feel you soul shaking. just shivering. shaken. disturbed.

there's just something about seeing a video or recording of someone who's dead. to see them talking & moving & laughing.

but when i saw his movies i didn't feel this way. not this bad. maybe because these were interviews of him. his real self. not just some character he's playing.

disturbing. i'm shaken. i'm sad. god. this sucks.

i feel like i'm literally crawling. on a rough surface.

it's the typical case of "i know exactly what i want, i know exactly where to find it, but i can't because it's inappropriate & i don't have the rights to go get it".

last assignment of the semester lya. come on! don't be such a weakling.

missing Muse fan

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jrhEo-rLXC8



just goes to show how humble & nice & brilliant & caring & just plain human these guys are. i know i'm like halfway across the world, but who knows where andy is now right? c'mon andy. free tickets & a meet with the band!



i'm praying to god andy's alive & well. spread this people.

words/emotions that ran through my brain today

• surreal
• never thought this day would come
• "omg omg omg ika aku nak mati dah!"

& berbagai-bagai lagi i just can't put it into words.

so yeah. convo huh?

phew!

it's raining, it's pouring.


everything seems much worse when you're alone & in total silence.
i can't freaking do anything. i feel so useless. & all the years come flooding back. all the memories. & the fact i haven't made much effort these last few years.
god please. not yet. not ever. please.


you're going to recover. & everything will be all right. god please.

new moon stuff, EW.

no offense to you, matt sayang. but the new moon version of i belong to you is just off. the guitar is too harsh i guess? 'cause the song, despite being catchy & pop-ish, is a bit on the soft side actually. it's all the classical instruments. the focus on the piano. it's soft, honestly. & the guitar just sounds out of place. well, if i know you well enough, i'd say you purposely did it that way. haha seriously it sounds carelessly made. oh & you edited out the french part :( oh well.. just my thoughts on the matter.

R.

aku dah jumpa "theme song" untuk kau. that promotional NME recorded-on-tour-bus track thingy. Man of Mystery rerecorded by Muse. the title fits. & the moment i heard it (tonight lah) aku rasa sangat fitting. mungkin sebab otak aku bersepah dengan thoughts of kau sekarang. ahh sudah sudah. aku sudah sangat dekat dengan insanity. *bawls*

"i want to recognize your beauty's not just a mask."

buka semula kotak memori.

kau!

kau..

ahh kau...

siapa sangka.

tunggang-langgang.

nasib baik tak accident.

i had half a mind to turn back.

did i just let an opportunity go?

ahh kau..
kau buat aku rasa semua itu semula. like not a day has passed. like it was day one all over again.




"sesungguhnya aku merindui perasaan itu; di mana kurasakan setiap titis darahku lenyap seketika, kemudian ia menyimbah ke muka; merona merah. hingga telapak tanganku pucat kedinginan, serta lututku menggigil tak bermaya. aku rasakan itu tatkala bertentang mata dengan dia." - august 15th, 2008

of explosions & gunshot sounds

if you want to commit a crime, don't just do it right, but go all the way so that if you get caught, it'll all be worth it.

it will also help if one of your accomplice is a magistrate. & your father (or in my case, friend's father) is present. hmm, come to think of it, there were only two underaged persons tonight (& one of them is unborn).

to all residents of taman zaaba, & perhaps lorong & persiaran zaaba, thousand apologies (think "mind your language").



good times :D

on politics

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=42mesIUG3kI&feature=player_embedded


i found myself nodding vigorously to all the things he said. it's more vigorous than how i nod in class when i am actually listening to the lecturer (i usually faintly nod when i'm not paying attention). not because it's matthew bellamy speaking. but because i agree with everything he said. ALL OF IT. even the cattle & animals part.

especially the last bit about education system ignoring politics.

see, this is why i'm so obsessed with him. not only because he's drop dead gorgeous, & an englishman, not only because he writes beautiful (beaufitul again *shakes head*) melodies AND lyrics to boot. but because he has brains. because he's not simply caught up in all the spotlight & dazzled by all the shimmering, glittering celebrity crap. his feet are so firmly placed on the ground that he notices things in real life that even normal, everyday people, who goes through the things in their daily life, doesn't notice.

i just love the way he scratches his head & nose & everywhere when he's talking.

i love the way he corrects himself while talking. i know there's a term for it, but i can't recall. but you know, when you say something & mid sentence you suddenly realize the person you're talking to might not agree with it, so you kind of add things like "i don't know how it is with you, but for me i believe..."

i just love the way he speaks. (& i think i'm turning that way. or maybe i've always been that way, i just noticed)

oh & imara, SHIRT! hahaha

i should stop gushing. just freaking watch the interview.

because i think we're most truthful in surveys

Have you ever felt like you literally needed someone?
yeah

Do you still talk to the person you fell hardest for?
erhh.. ouhh yeah now i remember who i fell hardest for. nope. can you believe it, i've never really spoken to him.

Are you afraid of falling in love?
nopes

What's the first thing that pops into your head when you think of last summer?
erm.. it's always summer in malaysia..

Are any of your friends taller than you?
yeah most of them

Would you be able to date someone who doesn't make you laugh?
i don't know really. if he doesn't make me laugh AT ALL then i guess no i won't be able to date him. but that's a bit sad right?

Do you think high school relationships can last?
ermm.. hello! exhibit A here.

Does the person you like/love names start with a B?
nopes. or maybe yes. YES. bellamy. hahaha

Reason for the last tear shed?
jap.. when was that? can't remember.

When you're sad, do you want to be alone or do you want someone?
i want to be with someone, but not necessarily to talk about it.

Are you taller than 5 foot 7 inches?
yeah in a perfect world.

Have you ever been in a hospital?
been to a hospital yes countless times. admitted into one, nopes.

Have you ever stayed up at night waiting for someone to call/text you?
oh haven't we all

Could you go a whole year without cursing?
nopes. i have to curse. at least once a month. hahah

Do you want to get married and have kids?
yeap

Which is more romantic: sunrise or sunset?
sunrise

Do you think making out is slutty?
if it's with everyone in sight, yes.

Do you like the idea of promise rings in relationships?
err yeah *blush* :P

Someone tells you that your beautiful, you say?
"you need spects". unless that someone is pear. it's his responsibility to say it. haha

How many arguments did you have with the last person you kissed?
didn't i say like hundreds of times? i don't kiss & tell. huhu

Lip piercings on both sides of your bottom lip, disgusting right?
kinda. but if it's just one piercing on the bottom lip, oohh heaven.

Would you ever consider piercing your lip?
yeah. but i can't.

How long is your hair?
not long enough, but it's growing alright.

What is a compliment you receive often?
"you ni rajin lah". yeah that's because i'm a control freak

Do you like funny people or serious people?
depends. i can't stand idiotically funny people

Is the last person you kissed older than you?
i'm not even going to bother answering

Have you ever cheated on a partner?
oh wells...

Have you ever told someone you loved them and meant it?
yeap. even with the lamest, jerk-iest boyfriend.

Are you happy with where you are relationship-wise now?
yeah i am

Who is your celebrity crush?
MATTHEW JAMES BELLAMY i'd totally marry him right now (& i just answered i'm happy with where i am relationship-wise now. pfft)

Who were you with last night?
noone. i was at home getting work done (control freak, yeap)

What language do you want to learn?
am learning japanese now. i guess german, ermm latin? huhu i guess if i could learn all the languages in the world i would.

Do you think abortions are horrible?
YES god

What's the last thing you put in your mouth?
limau suam

Do you still talk to your FIRST love?
my parents, yeah..

Is being in love hard?
sometimes. because of all the compromise, trust, give & not only take crap.

Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2010?
i don't know. things can change tomorrow & i wouldn't know it's going to right?

Are you a social or antisocial person?
i guess more on the antisocial side

Can money buy happiness?
Yes. If you have someone to spend it on <-- i like this answer so i'm just going to leave it

Has anyone said they loved you in the last week?
oh yes i know we're cheesy but we say i love you about 10 times a day (mainly 'cause we ran out of other things to say haha)

Can you honestly say you're okay right now?
right now? not really. sorethroat. presentation postponed again. slightly annoyed i guess.

Would you ever dye your hair blond?
neahh.. red, yes.

Have you ever been high or drunk during school/work?
nopes. i've really never been high on substances & drunk. i've been high on sugar & loved ones though. huhu

Do you have anything on your wrist at the moment?
erhh yeah sort of. ink. hahah the word, or rather, the name "bells"

Whats the first thing that comes to your head when you hear the word old?
ermm.. old people?

Do you ever get "good morning" texts from anyone?
sometimes.

Can you recall the last time you liked someone a lot?
yeah

Are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants, or pajama pants?
i don't know what these are. sort of like cotton slacks or something.

Can you commit to one person?
am committing

Could you go the rest of your life without drinking alcohol?
yeap

Kissed anyone older than you?
ignoring the question

When you say you don't care, do you mean it?
depends

Ever made a guy cry?
oh wells. hahah

Are there some songs you can't listen to because they remind you of someone?
well i know i sort of got over starlight, sing for absolution, unintended & the lot. but yeah i guess there are other songs that pierces a little bit. suppose i shouldn't listen to them during that time of the month. haha

Do you believe that it is best to have a friendship first then love?
i suppose love itself is some sort of friendship. but it so happens you care more for that person than other people. & well, you're physically attracted to them & all. but whether the friendship comes first or the love, it doesn't matter i guess. as long as the friendship is there.

Are you counting down for anything?
yeah to finals. i want to get all these assignments done & over with, & eventually the semester done & over with.

To get with someone of the opposite sex, have you ever faked being drunk?
nopes

Is it okay if you kiss people when you're single?
lols.

Would you date someone three years older than you?
i'm in a relationship with someone 2 years older than me. & i would like to marry someone 10 years older than me. that's all.

Are you a different person now then you were 5 years ago?
definitely. or maybe not different, just developed, matured. i don't know.

Ever been in a perfect relationship?
people say this is perfect. & i guess it is. because imperfections make it perfect right?

Your phone is ringing. It's the person you fell hardest for, what do you say?
"gapo mung?"

esokmauponteng(again)pleasethankyou

makin dekat dengan finals..

makin bertimbun assignment (yang percentage final marks-nya makin besar)..

makin penting pergi kelas sebab lecturer maybe discuss past sem (atau lagi best, bagi soalan finals terus)..

makin MALAS nak pergi kelas.

makin thoughts seperti "alah esok lecturer lek je, dia tak kisah orang ponteng kelas dia".

MEMANG LAH DIA TAK KISAH! SEBAB NANTI BILA FINAL KAU TAK RETI NAK JAWAB SOALAN, TINGGAL KOSONG, MAKIN SENANG DIA NAK MARK PAPER KAU!

pangkah, pangkah, pangkah, KOSONG! FAIL! REPEAT!

dahlah hilyah. pergi tidur.

makin drama kau ni.

aaaaaaaaand this is what i get for being overly obsessed with muse. a headache & slight nausea feeling, like if i read or hear another word on USoE, i'll totally barf (yeap, feeling like barfing right now)

i'm just gonna do it. go up to the front of the class & just blab. what i do best, i know. god i need sleep. enough "researching".

weirdly enough, i suddenly get the feeling of listening to the resistance. hahah ya allah hilyah kau ni memang tak serik.

verdasco's playing right now. RIGHT NOW. i hear girls screaming. i hate them. i hate this. i need to find tennis friends who'd go to the stadium with me. but then again, by the time i find tennis friends, malaysian open will be long over. ARGHHHHHHHH screw this!

setelah cuba dan cuba dan cuba untuk masuk student portal, dan tidak berjaya dan tidak berjaya dan tidak berjaya, aku akan masuk ke bilik dan get comfy. f.u. uitm :)