Short getaway: Lembah Temir

Since I'm bored out of my wits,

& not quite right in the head,

I will write about Lembah Temir.

Honestly, siapa tak cuak wei nak pergi cuti dengan family bakal.

Extended family pulak tu.

Dahlah tiap-tiap kali tanya Ikhwan siapa pergi,

dia asyik jawab 'semua-semua la'.

Tak membantu sungguh.

Jadi pagi Sabtu tu aku pun bangunlah awal gila,

macam whatthehell hujung minggu bangun lagi awal dari hari kerja?

Anyways, ended up 12 orang je yang pergi,

iaitu (excuse my poyo-ness) Papa, Mama, Ikhwan, aku, Kimi, Anis, Zaki, Fifa,

& kereta lagi satu Aunty Yati, Irfan, Kak Manis & Aunt Millie.

The journey was uneventful,

& to appear courteous aku tak dengar mp3 (poyo lagi),

sampailah jalan nak masuk tu yang sebenarnya bagi aku elok je,

cuma cuak sikit sebab naik Serena & bukan 4WD yang made for adventure.

Bila sampai tempat tu, mak aih aku punya jakun tak agak-agak.

Fave photo (favourite spot, sampai tidur pun kat sini)

Overall, sungai dia aku biasa-biasa je sebab cetek.

It used to be much deeper tapi diorang tambah pasir sampai jadi paras lutut.

Cuma best sebab ikan banyak & jinak (terubat rindu kat guppies kat rumah. haha boleh?)

Tapi waterfall dia terbaik.

& lagi satu aku paling suka makanan dia terlampau awesome.

Especially dinner malam tu, sup daging dia terkenang sampai sekarang.

Adoi la.

& ni favourite spot untuk aku makan sebab romantika uols.

Slack takde candle & rose merah sekumtum je.

Dahlah penat lah nak meng-upload gambar.

Banyak lagi aku tak cerita tapi macam flow tu takde.

So, moral of the story: vacation trips do bring people closer together.

I'm very happy I managed to bond with his family members,

& hopefully everything goes well in the future :)

ni lah namanya orang takde ilham nak menulis,

tapi sebab takde arah tuju jadi bantai tulis jugak.

so lame.

Time & perfect timings.

I think it's bad.

I'm kind of excited about this month,

so excited that I actually made the freepeople March calendar into my desktop background

(but mostly 'cause it's so purrdy).

It's 16 days to my birthday.

I've been rather irritated, but generally.

I was irritated by Ikhwan (but that's normal)

I was irritated by OCBC & Internet Explorer not working well together

I was not so much irritated but rather down by the fact I was home alone with no (proper) dinner,

& fell asleep, waking up cranky.

But i feel all this everyday,

regardless whether it's March,

or it's PMS.

So why am I even talking about feelings?

Anyways, just 'cause I want to add something interesting in my blog,

remember Fuad?

& the whole 'Dear Lya' poyo-ness that I wrote a few weeks back?

I ran into him on the way to Projek Pop last night & he actually recognized me.

Oh the delight of seeing the recognition in his face,

him stopping for me,

& saying my name, or rather, my tweethandle,

shaking his hand,

walking beside him & talking about his guitar bag,

(I still feel he should have performed in his work clothes)

ok enough.

I just want to say, if you want to make it in the artistic world,

appreciate your fans.

However, mister, you gotta stop making my day like this.

It's getting inappropriate :3 (senyum misai bak kata Hairi)

& I still haven't blogged about the trip to Lembah Temir.

So. Lazy.

I'm torn between wanting to blog about my vacation trip with Ikhwan's family,

& some.. feelings.. I had just now.

I guess the feelings issue is easier to talk about now because I'm honestly too lazy to upload pictures here.

It's the same case as what I have blogged,

about how if things only happen at the right place & the right time,

then life would not be life.

I guess I was just reminded by how alike you are to your dad.

Sumpah suara sama ok, masa dia bagi salam tadi terkejut aku.

Lepas tu sambil kunyah nasik dengan kari, mulalah otak ligat rewind.

Kembali ke malam My Immortal 19 kali,

ke hari first time bergaduh dengan boyfriend lantas ugut bunuh diri (drama gila) then you actually walked me home to make sure I didn't jump into the longkang tepi rumah,

lepak padang tangkap gambar cincin,

the last few days before you left for MMU.

How you reassured me the friendship will last,

that distance doesn't matter when there's the phone & the internet,

& you walked me home again,

one last time.

Bunyi macam couple terhebat dunia kan?

But he was just a friend,

takde friendzone-friendzone apekejadah.

We spent all those time swapping sad stories about how our love lives sucked,

& the fact that being both pisceans, we clicked so well.

Bila aku pikir balik, aku serious tak pernah ada feelings for him,

walaupun bergayut berjam-jam macam bercinta.

What happened, man?

I actually know the answer.

Life happened.

I grew up,

he found someone,

then, obviously, we had no problems to share with each other anymore,

nothing common to talk about,

& we grew apart.

& omg you're getting married,

"meleleh ayaq liuq dah" bak kata ayah hang.

Sabar jerlah.

Congrats & all the best, dude.

"Hold it close, won't let this go"

Dream Catch Me must be a favourite when it comes to songs for wedding videos,
the flow,
the trinkling guitar intro,
is so "focus into muka bride tengah kena tenyeh dengan mak andam".
& maybe that's why I like it so much,
I somehome can picture myself going through it.
Mahap la mak tak habis berangan lagi ni ye.
But what I like most about it is once the song gets to its chorus,
of how it's really up to him to go wherever & think whatever when he withdraws into himself,
but instead he sees the 2 of them.
it makes life that much easier to imagine.
we're always at the top of a hill,
solid white weather, but the kind that shines.
& you, turning with a smile.

the extremely long graduating post.

semua orang dah pun selesai dengan status update & blog post terima kasih - terima kasih mereka.

aku?

hari ni agak berkejar ke sana sini serta ada gangguan perasaan sikit so,

finally at 2230 hours,

lepas selesai tanggungjawab sebagai employee, maksu & anak,

inilah masa aku nak menghadap blogger.

aih makin lama makin panjang mukadimah tetiap blog ni.

anyways,

i don't know about most people,

but sometimes it's impossible for me to measure my life by the amount of time that passes,

because, as always, time moves too fast for me to really understand it.

so most of the time i'm left with measuring my life by the experiences that i've been through.

right now, honestly,

the beginning of degree feels like just last year.

macam baru tahun lepas aku duduk depan PC bawah dan tweet "finance in shah alam anyone?" pagi sebelum gerak ke uitm first day of class.

macam baru tahun lepas aku beratur tunggu turn depan bilik en husni dengan sina,

lepas tu nadia tegur ajak berkenalan.

macam baru tahun lepas belajar japanese dengan sensei aini.

(dan insiden shooting video japanese ketika tengah angau tahap meroyan).

semua tu 2 tahun setengah yang lepas okay.

tapi toksah nak habaq la,

part one diploma pun rasa macam tahun lepas jugak.

tapi bila diukur dengan experiences,

seperti convo & the days following,

seperti the PD class zoo trip,

seperti ramadhan 2010,

baru aku sedar aku ni dah tua rupanya T.T

semalam lepas dah tau result dan recover dari episod tangan gigil sampai typo melampau,

a rush of faces flashed across my mind.

a lot of people brought me here,

i didn't do this on my own, hell no.

from FA through out my first sem & adapting to life in shah alam,

to R who pretty much pushed me through first finals,

to I, whom without i probably wouldn't be able to face internship.

sina & nadia, undoubtedly, yang sangat memahami jiwa aku yang control freak when it comes to assignments,

mama, for bells,

abah, for random conversations yang buat aku semangat ke arah finance.

yaya, for the kids & also the random conversations,

fai, for constantly challenging my ego in a way only a brother can (i just realized this now, but hell it makes sense).

kak gayah, kak milah,

wan, for being in the same building as me & mock trial & assignment account & offering your office as my tempat bertenggek,

lecturers (especially en syed, en husni, datin yang buat personal super awesome, & lain-lain, sebenarnya semua terkesan kat hati cuma tak mampu sebut je),

mak, for making opkim super awesome juga (tetibe craving mak punya suun),

groupmates through out the whole bachelor course.

dzulaikha, sebab aku tahu mesti dia nak aku sebut nama dia (juga for entertaining me time aku tengah gelabah hilang akal tunggu result)

dan sesiapa sahaja yang pernah cross path & therefore, making a mark on my journey through life.

wohh boleh tahan panjang & sentimental.

but it seriously just dawned on me minutes before the result email came in last night,

that i am no longer a student,

& will never be anymore, most probably.

dah tamat lagi satu era dalam hidup,

yang pada mulanya benci sebenci-bencinya masa dapat kat perak dulu,

sekarang muka-muka ni la yang aku paling sayang,

yang nak duduk sebelah bersanding nanti,

yang nak jadi dayang-dayang.

but another realization i had was that,

yes it was good while it lasted,

but i'm relieved it's over.

it's the right time,

& i'm ready to move on.

so til we meet again for convo,

as for now i am just glad i'm done with you, uitm.

from a piscean to a piscean;

"we like to know we've explored all of our options. because we're the kind of people who would look back & think 'what if I had pushed it a little bit more?'"

:)

& now i'm basking in the feeling of Newton Faulkner - Dream Catch Me with new earphones.

hee

That shade of colour.

It's amazing how a dream that lasted probably less than 10 minutes can spark so many things.
Thoughts, realizations, regrets.
Perhaps in that order.
How i allowed things to go wrong.
How certain things could have worked out.
How things could have turned out so, so different.
But then if things always happened the right way at the right time,
Life wouldn't be life,
I wouldn't have grown,
& wouldn't be able to learn from moments like this.
But a human is prone to some regrets, if not many,
The fact that with those that came after you, there was none like you,
In the way that even your subconscious reaches out to me,
In the way that you undoubtedly loved me, though in your very own way which i failed to recognize,
In the way that i trusted you deep down inside, to this very day, that you are, have been, & always will be true.
Thanks for the love, & especially for the friendship.
(& even in that you have been generous to me)