Disposal.

To be perfectly honest,

I'm treating Fall Out Boy like wet wipes right now.

Wiping all the shit clean,

I'm positive they are going to be disposed off very, very soon.

With the exception of Evening Out With Your Girlfriend & Take It To Your Grave,

All the other albums reeks of recent feelings.

I do not want to keep them.

Sorry Patrick Stumph.

It was good while it lasted though.

Progress update.

I'm going to begin my post with this:
I have achieved yet another milestone tonight when my best friend from university,
Geng free hair seksi2, balik kl tiap2 minggu, borak 18sx,
Yang sekarang dah kahwin, beranak pinak dan insaf (perlu ditekankan disini),
Invited me to like her Tupperware page on Facebook.
Tupperware, tuan2 dan puan2.
I cannot get anymore housewife than this lol.
Anyways, selamat sejahtera para pembaca.
Minggu yang drama.
Izzaz turned 6 months old & along came fever, cough, flu & God knows what else.
Both him & Hilwa has been down since Saturday.
Hilwa suara dah macam itik nila.
Took them both to the hospital yesterday, thank God they weren't admitted.
Blood tests came back negative for dengue & micro-abende-ntah I can't remember anymore what the doctor mentioned (it's in the results paper, I'm too lazy to get up & check).
Though Izzaz was given the nebulizer & has to take antibiotics for a week T.T
Bertabahlah nak menyumbat ubat lagi 5 hari.
Pengalaman first time pergi private hospital?
Best sebab laju.
Doctor, nurse semua baik dan peramah.
Armchair tempat nebulizer tu empuk tak hengat.
Ok dah cukup la cite pasal budak2 sakit dan hospital.
Updates on Izzaz:
Mengengsot penuh rumah dengan sangat laju.
2, 3 hari ni dah start 'atatah' & 'mamama'.
Memula aku macam taknak bangga sangat dia dok 'mamama' tu,
But usually he does that when he's fussy, mintak susu or mengantuk tapi aku lambat attend.
So kembang la sikit teehee.
Ok dah cukup la tu.

Dating game on fleek.

Today I'm going to proceed to not making that much sense.
My husband is a firm disbeliever of Valentine's day.
He gets borderline annoyed whenever I bring the topic up, like asking for flowers or a date.
(Except this year when I sarcastically asked for a helmet. I got a teeny tiny smile out of that but nope, no sparkly candy apple red helmet for me today).
Anyways, I think his reasons are religious but I'm not sure.
But today I learnt that one shall not give up too early in the fight.
The kids woke up super early this morning,
By the time we were ready to go out they were ready for their nap, & in Hilwa's case pretty hungry.
So we had a stressful lunch with Izzaz (who fell asleep in the car) refusing to go back to sleep but is fussing & asking to be carried,
& Hilwa who couldn't wait for her food, then managed to sit & eat her fries for a while, then became hyper & even fell of the chair trying to climb her dad or something (standard behavior when she's too tired).
I swear to God I was so done.
I was convinced Ikhwan would pull his usual "jom la balik I penat" act, & I actually wouldn't have minded.
But instead, he lead me to Harvey Norman to "survey barang untuk rumah kita nanti".
(Yes, one can dream).
& Izzaz fell asleep in his carrier while Hilwa pretty much passed out in the stroller,
& I know this is so housewifey of me but I had such a blast looking at washing machines & kitchen sets & fridges.
Hands down, best Valentine's day ever.
I'm not sure Ikhwan even noticed what day it was,
But who cares.
I got my date.
I'm already bugging him to get a day off later this month so we can go to Ikea pulak lulz.

Lega.

So something pretty big happened earlier (or yesterday la officiallynya),
Tak perlu la nak mention apa dia tapi it was a big deal.
Cukup significant untuk buat jiwa kacau beberapa bulan,
Walaupun kononnya hadap dalam diam sorang-sorang,
Tapi bila Ikhwan tanya tadi "so you lega tak?" nampak sangat men are not oblivious after all bahahah.
As for the answer to his question?
Aku tak lega.
In fact, I don't feel anything.
I had a small "oh" when I finally saw it.
I took a few good looks at it.
I watched a movie with Ikhwan & completely forgot about it.
Then the movie ended & it came back to my attention & Ikhwan asked me the question, & honestly I felt nothing.
Until I went to instagram's explore page & came across a stranger's car selfie & her child's car seat caught my attention.
It was then that I felt something major.
Excitement.
Ohhh we really gotta buy Izzaz a proper car seat, I'm so excited.
& for that, I am lega.
So to the universe,
Good luck.
May all of our journeys go smoothly & safely.

Stash stress.

Been feeling so super stressed out today.
Over a ring sling.
I feel so shallow but honest to god, I'm stressed out.
Here's my train of thought:
Let's sell anggun.
I'm gonna price it exactly what I bought it for,
Mention that I've only had it for a week & no love there.
Nonono but there is love there, I love how solid it is, I know Izzaz will be able to grow with it for a while.
Ok let's get it converted.
But then what shoulder will I change it to?
It is kinda working as it is, isn't it?
Kak Ilah does have a point about having the long taper as top rail.
Nonono, now that I've noticed the seams are facing outwards I cannot live with it like that.
& I definitely do not like pleated shoulder.
Hmm should I have the plain grey part on top, or the black stripey part?
I think the grey is prettier but any stains will definitely show.
The black is more practical but I don't really like how it looks without the grey showing when worn.
But do I really wanna spend more money on it?
Fine, lets just sell & get something perfect.
*scroll fsot, spots something interesting, try to find reviews, moves on to the next thing, sees price, freaks out.
Seriously, I don't think I can find another toddlerworthy & pretty ring sling for the price I got anggun for.
I mean, we're talking pavos, at least.
Sub 300.
Basically nonexistent.
But then realistically, how much longer can I carry Izzaz on one shoulder comfortably anyways?
It's WCSSCs I should be looking at right now.
Yeap, just need some healthy donations from some sugar daddy for that lulz.
Also, I think I've been watching too much wrapyouinlove.
I'm beginning to confuse Izzaz & Emile.
& now that Izzaz is finally asleep I'm kinda itching to pinch him & hear his laugh.
Which makes me wanna go watch Emile some more coz it's like the next best thing sigh.

OCD.

So I mentioned I received the anggun rs last week.
I put it on maybe twice,
Found it too thick & kejung,
Borderline impossible to thread & tighten,
It's a left pleated shoulder,
& the list of negatives goes on.
I just couldn't love it, kept on going through fsot for a new one that I could buy & quickly sell anggun.
Until I got the idea of getting it converted into a right shoulder rs.
Contacted Kak Ilah of BabyFizzy & discussing the conversion made me realize that as it is, the rs is actually 'wrong' side out.
So I flipped it over & wore it properly for the first time just now,
& my god right now I really can't imagine ever selling it lol.
I'm definitely getting it converted though because the exposed seams & tag is really bugging the hell out of me.
Plus I now know I don't really enjoy a pleated shoulder.
But yeah.
You'd think in babywearing there's enough to consider what with thread blends, weave type & grammage.
Now I know for a fact I'm anal about seams too bahahah!