dadah halal

dalam keadaan bontot kanan kebas, lutut lembik serta otak separa high, aku berjaya ke idaman dan melantak kuey teow kungfu, tunjuk jalan ke subang untuk menghantar baby dan bergelak ketawa di living room nya bersama stitchketeers plus 1. serta makan podssssssss! ok sekarang baru ingat kenapa bila burp aku rasa sirap, sebab tadi minum sirap bandung. wahhh potent sungguh dadah yang doktor tadi suntikkan. nak hari-hari boleh? imara seems to enjoy my being high. hahah


mama.. RM65 well spent! lepas ni rashes sikit je, i nak inject lagi!


i really need to go sleep. effect drowsiness dah hilang dah pun -_-"

i...

...need

entertainment.

manakah ia? actually.. apakah ia?

i'm cleansing my soul

sebab ni lah orang selalu samakan life dengan iceberg. because only 10% of it is visible. the rest is submerged, hidden.

kalau nak judge satu-satu benda tu berdasarkan apa yang kita nampak je, that's where people make mistakes. sebab apa yang tersorok, yang tak tersebut, yang tak terzahir itulah that tell the real story. yang luar tu cuma facade. macam iceberg tadi. on the surface kita tengok macam hek eleh kecik je. tapi what lies beneath... Tuhan saja yang tahu.

really.. dengan akal yang Tuhan dah bagi ni we can find out so much that's hidden. tak tahu, tanya. taknak tanya, perhati. tak reti nak perhati, belajar. jangan pakai buat kesimpulan sendiri. jangan cakap ikut sedap mulut, ikut suka hati. ingat ni hilyah. anger management. orang lain ada their side of the story. hear it out. find out. pertimbangkan feelings diaorang.

betul kata imara.. lepas camping trip ni banyak yang berubah.

berkenaan billy talent lagi

boleh tak aku rasa annoyed dengan pear sebab dia refuse nak dengar billy talent just because vocals dia agak annoying. fine. suara mamat tu agak try la. but it's not THAT bad. their songs are good kot. susah nak carik bands yang capable of writing meaningful lyrics.



sukaaaaaaaaaa Dead Can't Testify! the essence of the song is much much much much better than Where Is The Line.



& also Turn Your Back. see! musicians do care about the environment ok?!



hee suka hati la sayang. biar ni jadi indulgence i sorang!

the camping trip

of all times, mother nature just had to choose this weekend to bestow rain upon us. no.. wait.. "rain" doesn't seem to be doing it justice. i think it's more appropriate to use the word "pouring". it was POURING. lucky for us we managed to cook, start a fire n dry out the woods to be used in the fire, & eat before it really started to pour. so by the time it was raining heavily, everyone was already in a sleepy, malas mood. so, what else other than sleep right? NO! then the tents started to leak. except for poopy's, where he was sleeping ALONE. unfairness!

but, all in all, we made it through the night. no one was freaked out by the gazillion pacats so it was ok. everyone found somewhere to sleep (even though for only a few hours). & i'd say the mission was accomplished. i mean, whats camping without rain right? it's a must! oh & food was mooooore than enough, & delicious! even maggi tasted good. haha

so yeah. there you have it. the camping trip, done & over with, after years of "jom camping bila-bila" but tak pernah jadi. looking forward for the next one, people! huhu



oh ohh lupa pulak! list of people who went: me, pear, imara, farid, nad, anip, wan, habri, fatimah, poopy, tapir. yus & ella was supposed to join us but had to turn back at the very last minute after some complications with ella's car :( so i'd say we have to do this again!

III

after listening to billy talent's new album a few times, i think i finally understand what "mainstream" means. it doesn't necessarily have anything to do with the genre or the instruments used or the lyrics. but it's when you listen to the song (or see anything) & you go "hey i think i've heard this before" (or "i've seen this before").

& having said that, i don't know whether i'm disappointed with the new album or not. part of me wants to just delete the album from my storage 'cause, well, if it's mainstream it sucks. but another half of me is like.. it is billy talent so just ignore it & enjoy the music. but i wasn't so lenient on fall out boy back then right? i didn't even give their album a chance. so really i don't know.

oh well.. i have a feeling i'll be bored of this album quite soon anyway.

i'm counting on the used. hurry hurry i want your new album out now!

hilyah.. the next time you need a good laugh, remember you can always turn to...

icanhascheezburger.com

Tears Into Wine

"Oh Lord, I just can't..
Tear the moon from the stars tonight,
Twist my arm like a knife tonight,
& if you wanna leave that's alright,
Well I'll just turn these tears into wine..."

over & over & over again.
stuck dalam otak.
saya cinta billy talent!

anniversary

two years.


dua tahun.


erhh.. i only speak two languages fluently :P


oh tapi macam tadi diaorang tanya, kalau campur semua berapa?
ermm.. empat tahun lebih jugak la.


kalau tak ambil kira waktu-waktu "we were on a break" (said in ross from friends punya tone), then enam tahun.


wah.
WAHHH.


tak tahu kenapa this year feels so special. bukan special excited. more like special peaceful, contented, meant to be..


mungkin sebab last weekend was sangat rocky.
mungkin sebab that talk we had was so deep, it feels like we've reached a whole new level of understanding.
mungkin sebab malam itu, that talk, i actually broke down; literally in tears, emotionally all walls & barricades; & to me it was worth it.
only with him.
only to him.


oh words can't describe & actions might not show enough.
but i know. i know.
for sure.


dan sebab itu dua tahun ini rasa sekejap.
dua tahun ini feels right.
dua tahun ini happened.

(maaf gambar yang ada semua sengal-sengal belaka)

i love you muhamad faizal arif shaharudin.
i love you sayang.

ohh & (hehe excuse me sayang, i can't help myself) happy birthday matthew james bellamy. huhu

...& the comforts of this bed have all been shattered to pieces...

had a nice drinky session with dan at mosin.
found out billy talent's third album is out (sorta).
met ammar (he was being so cute!) & the scouts (what is it with me & the scouts? huu).
free milo ais from makesh.
am reading quite a good book.
suddenly felt the urge to listen to the used's sun comes up.
& felt like going online.
i feel good.
yeah i feel good.


sorry matthew, malam ni malam the used dan billy talent. maybe you should hurry up with that new album of yours. ohhh take me to paradise~

(i know this line is so cliche but i'm starting the post with it anyway..)
have you every woken up from a dream so good, you feel depressed the whole day, but you can't remember why. then something reminds you of it, & the feeling that comes just stabs at your heart. sad, because it's not real, but at the same time you feel good, being reminded of it. then you long for it. so so much.

& it's even worse when you know it's possible. maybe it needs a little effort & a whole lot of luck, but it is possible. god.. those parts of my body that was touching yours, while i lay in your arms in the dream, feels sore. how real can it get?

it's times like this that i don't know whether to be thankful of or hating my insomnia. grrrr

nadal kalah yayayay!

mama nak tau tak kenapa i sangat rajin lipat/iron baju sekarang?

sebab the sound of that small, furry green ball bouncing on the clay court & being hit around by taut-stringed (is that even a word) racquet calms me down. sangat.

i love tennis. don't you?