new clothes.

so.. i FINALLY changed my layout.

or should i say blog design?

oh you get my drift.

it has been as it was (white.. grey.. more white..) since i created this account.

which is december 2008 if i am not mistaken.

& honestly i loved it.

the white, the grey, & the more white.

i loved the fact i call this blog Overstatements,

yet its appearance is so understated.

i loved the fact that if people were to accidentally arrive on my page,

be it from google,

or from clicking 'next blog',

there's a possibility that they would take one look at it & click 'next blog' again,

or just 'X' the damn window.

but, alas..

i did say i was bored & had too much time on my hands.

so what originally was me wanting to just add a little picture i found while googling randomly,

which i fell head over heels with,

to be my background image,

so that what was white.. grey.. more white..

would instead be white.. grey.. & pink! with lace!

resulted in me getting carried away with the 'template designer' function.

well..

i believe nothing much changed pun kan.

it is still white.. grey.. & pink, with lace.

oh & frosty green.

which, funnily, i fell head over heels in love with too.

thanks to The Ultimate Cake Off, the episode where they had to design a wedding cake.

(long story short, one of the contestants, the youngest guy i can't remember his name & i am too lazy to go research did his cakes using this veeeeery faint green fondant, then piped on white icing or whatever, & it looked so purrrrdy!)

so originally lah i wanted to find something exactly like the current image i am using for my background, but with a frosty, very faint green colour.

jadi nak compensate, header pun jadilah hijau.

plus don't you think if the header were to be pink too, everything would start looking so sickly?

macam cotton candy.

aaanyways.

why so banyak cakap, hilyah?

you know what i hate about the holidays?

the fact that i have too much time.

i've been stalking the limited amount of blogs that i've been reading,

to the point that they don't post often enough to give me, say, something new to read 3 times a day.

i'm running out of interesting reads!

i just finished reading the witch of portobello by paulo coelho,

which wan loaned me,

though i was highly at risk of termurtad.

haha.

no, but seriously, at one point i did put the book down mid-sentence, mengucap, istighfar, ingat Allah, before continuing.

i am easily influenced by words. seriously.

especially when the subject touches on things i am currently dealing with.

like the blank spaces, the pauses.

like the Male God (or whatever term it is they use to describe Him) & the Great Mother.

i am, actually, highly vulnerable to my own thoughts.

& there you have it, another thing i hate about the holidays, about free time, & about having a schizophrenic mind that enjoys bickering when there are no external distractions.

haih.

can someone recommend me a harry potter-ish, darren shan-ish series that is at least 10 books long?

no, i don't want to read twilight.

Pointless Somethings.

sebab latest post kina (eee gelinya panggil kau kina) ada sebut pasal aku,

(juga shah indrawan. siap kau!)

aku rasa macam nak post pasal dia jugak.

tapi masalahnya aku lapar.

jadi aku cakap satu ni je lah.

haritu aku dengar Enrique Iglesias - Hero dowhh..

well, it came on pastu cepat-cepat aku skip. hahah

SEBAB!

sebab kau kata aku dengan kau dulu unreal.

sebab kau kata tu semua rumours je.

sampai hati kau!

you were my first love kot!

meh.

betul ke cerita kita lesbian tu sampai office kecoh?

i don't remember that part..

mesti mak aku gelak guling-guling kan.

ngahah

i got an interesting phone call just now from Annai dearest.

i thought whaaat lah.. craving watermelon juice again or something.

but then he buka cerita yang, as mentioned above, interesting.

what i don't get though,

is why the F are you still friendly-friendly with my friends if dulu you complain you feel like you don't fit in lah, rasa out of place lah, we all so berlagak asyik speaking lah..

i mean, i know Annai doesn't exactly fall into the category of those you complained on,

but stiiill.. berapa kali je jumpa kot, if not only that one time.

gila photographic memory hang.. boleh ingat dia sampai sekarang.

honestly, i don't have anything against it.

orang nak berkawan, buat apa aku nak halang kan?

i just don't get why, that's all.

nonetheless, it was still a very interesting story.

:)

sejak menganggur kat rumah ni aku kesedaran (kesedaran?) sesuatu.

ok fine.

sedar akan sesuatu.

got a realization lah kalau nak translatekan maksud sebenar.

ok panjang pulak soal kesedaran ni.

anyways

i realized that all this while dari sekolah menengah (or was is sekolah rendah?) yang aku asyik cakap cita-cita aku nak jadi surirumah, aku tak pernah embrace the idea.

or rather, embrace the reality of such a cita-cita.

aku cukup malas nak basuh pinggang mangkuk, harapkan basuh pinggan sendiri je.

time raya bila kena kerah punyalah menyumpah dalam hati.

& nak lari cepat-cepat lest kena paksa lagi.

bila kena tolong masak, especially kupas bawang putih, kemain complain kata bau bawang tu melekat bawah kuku sampai sebulan tak hilang.

rajin masukkan baju dalam machine, tapi haram malas nak sidai,

serta angkat baju bila dah kering,

apatah lagi nak lipat & simpan dalam almari.

tapi ada satu aku rajin,

aku rajin ternak habuk dalam bilik.

alasan tak suka menyapu/lap habuk?

allergic. nanti naik rashes.

lepas tu masih ada hati kata nak jadi surirumah sepenuh masa.

-_-"

jadi sekarang bila terdetiknya perkataan 'M' yang laknat tu (hint: Malas)

aku cepat-cepat rajinkan diri.

cepat-cepat buat lebih dari yang perlu.

sebab bila dah sedar betapa 'cakap tak serupa bikin' nya diri ini,

betapa posernya diri ini,

aku rasa macam loser.

baik aku minat justin bieber.

(it rhymes lah wei!)

boleh tak aku cakap kat faculty aku taknak buat internship kat company-company apa jadah.

internship aku di rumah.

masak-masak takat yang mampu.

menyapu halaman rumah (sambil katuk kucing yang pikir kita nak main dengan dia pakai penyapu).

basuh baju, sidai baju, angkat baju, lipat baju, simpan baju.

cuci pinggan.

serta mendodoi ilhan sampai layla pun ikut menari.

ini bukan setakat ilmu untuk memulakan career.

ini ilmu sepanjang hayat ni.

agak-agak encik husni bagi tak?

:D

Cannonball.

dah lama tak post soal melody, lagu, perasaan & memory. soal-soal itulah.

& in today's case, lyrics sahaja tak memadai.

jadi nah.

segala realizations, segala feelings, segala meaning yang terkandung.

because it doesn't change like other songs might.

this one will hopefully never change.

today is like one of those days

beautifully fulfilling kind of days

what with shooting aksi ranjang petang tadi (mind you, i had a husband, an affair & a boyfriend. how cool am i?!)

& reminiscing good ol' times (accompanied by videos) with mummy, daddy, boyfie & most importantly bapak tiri dearest

fond, FOND memories

the kind that made me stare dead straight at the laptop

hoping people would not notice how shiny my eyes were

god. has it really been 7 years?

then the double date dinner (wan's going to so kill me for calling it a date)

of supposedly good food & yippee cup after

more fond memories

& just typical weird stuff

the best thing about today is constantly realizing that i no longer have to worry about assignments or studying for tomorrow's paper

you know, annoying things like that

but of course,

i'm still failing portfolio :D

mampatan.

it so happens that my brain drafts blog posts either when i'm bathing, or.. ehem.. doing something else in the toilet.

like petang tadi sambil mandi wajib selepas final exam terakhir i drafted a post about my freshly-wedded brother. (how i remember the day he washed his car before going back to perak because zura was tumpang-ing him.. masa awal-awal bercinta dulu.. & how they would miss call each other like hundreds of times. literally hundreds. & like that trip to kebun where i first met zura. man that was 8 years ago!) <-- so yeah that's one post done!

& also like unwritten recaps on each paper.

i can barely remember CTU. i faintly remember feeling not too confident, but able to at least answer essay questions.

FSA waaaass.. tak cukup time! & gelabah abang aku nak kahwin! <-- tak membantu

Personal.. okay kot. hall was too sejuk so whatever braincells was focused to attempting to write with frozen hands. i honestly can't remember what was it i wrote. besides, gelabah kakak aku beranak pulak. <-- tak membantu #2

SM. awesome. talk about getting lucky benda yang baca semua masuk. (tetibe fail kan? memang best).

RE walaupun baru semalam tapi macaaaam tak ingat. oh! sina keluar awal gila macam haram. ohh i remember blanking out the moment i saw the word 'hypothecation' (or something like that). yeah RE wasn't pretty.

& then there's Portfolio. let's just say lepas portfolio tadi aku tak berapa rasa confident nak intern sem depan. ala-ala macam kena extend je.. bleargh.

so there hilyah. recaps yang tak berapa nak membantu for when you get your results nanti. sebab as usual mesti kau OCD nak check balik semua yang berlaku. note that all of this was written on an extremely hot night with the tv blaring. i suppose this won't make much sense tomorrow, let alone a month from now.

anywaaays.. referring to statement terakhir berkenaan portfolio. mama tanya petang tadi (ala fai's "the graduate's home!" masa aku habis last finals diploma dulu) "how does it feel like to be merdeka for good?" (or something like that). damn tak lawak. beruban aku nak tunggu results. fak.

there should be something wrong when it's exam season but i keep on posting about syllabus-unrelated matters.

still the same rushed tone,

but totally, totally unrelated matters.

because what matters most as at this moment

is this

Ilhan Shahid bin Hafetz

May 3rd, 2011; 1526hours

3.45kgs

As at this moment (version 2),
5cm opening
She'll be sent to the labor room soon.
All i have to say is,
I'm screwing personal & SM!
Haihh inilah dia dugaan finals terakhir.

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As at this moment,
I'm done with 2 papers (ctu & fsa)
& all 3 majlises.
My brother is officially a husband.
(Ikhwan & i are officially jealous :P).
I am officially exhausted.
& i officially have more complaints than praises.
(Such as how my feet officially hurts).
I have only one more thing to say,
That is on to the next 2 papers, personal & sm!

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