sometimes i find it hard to blog,

not because i can't let my feelings out,

but because i don't know which issue to address first,

so that everything makes sense.

i guess i'll just say what comes to mind,

& if it doesn't make much sense,

it'll hopefully serve as a reminder.

provided blogger doesn't get wiped out like friendster did.

& i know i'm sooo ketinggalan zaman in this,

but my sister just told me,

& oh god i felt like my world just crashed down on me.

i AM FEELING like my world is crashING down on me.

& to think ramadhan is just a day away.

oh god.

all the memories.

...

...

i really shouldn't be going too deep into this.

:'(

Adele - Rolling In The Deep

i finally found a tangible way of demonstrating what Dom's drumming does to my heart.

please focus on the room full of glasses filled with water vibrating to the drumbeat.

my heart beats to your rhythm, Dombie!

anyways, wa tau wa lambat.

i honestly thought this adele chick is more of a whitney houston, jennifer hudson kinda singer.

rupa-rupanya kau lebih kepada duffy.

& to me that's cool.

awesome song :)

I am actually more troubled by the gossip i heard from Yaya regarding the kfcm-dahlia teck whoever she is scandal,
Compared to the fact that harimau Malaya was embarrassed by the supposed lions (now better known as pussies to me :D).
I mean, I'm typing this at 0150hrs,
Esok wa kerja bai.
wa takle tido ni!


Amacam?
Leh challenge drama singapura tak?
Esok kat office kalau ngantuk wa request stretcher sedas :)

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berborak untuk kesekian kalinya dengan yaya pasal prospect bekerja di bank negara.

kenapa banyak alasan sekarang?

kenapa cita-cita dah downgrade tahap gaban?

sedangkan peluang seperti ada.

& kalaupun peluang tak ada,

apa salahnya simpan cita-cita?

kenapa?

kenapa jadi macam ni?

possimpible?

I OBJECT!

simply because it doesn't make sense.

at all.

when harry released him from the zoo, voldemort was already in his not-dead-not-alive state.

for god sakes he's been in that state for 11 years.

& that snake was bred in captivity.

doesn't that mean his mother gave birth to him in the zoo,

or he was hatched in the zoo.

but whatever it is it doesnt make sense.

i mean, out of all the snakes in the world,

tell me voldemort chose to go to a zoo to find one that is suitable to be his horcrux.

possible,

but to me highly unlikely.

& another thing,

in case there's anyone who's going to argue with "well maybe he turned nagini into a horcrux after book 4"

well, he already made his 7th horcrux before he "died" in godric's hollow, didn't he?

so yes.

i object to this.

17 weeks to go

minggu ni,

well actually friday je lah,

aku buat AR 13 tahun untuk 1 company.

habis final print yang ni,

aku nak duduk goyang kaki sampai habis intern.

i feel ACCOMPLISHED!

but seriously,

you wouldn't believe the pain of doing AR after AR after AR dalam keadaan nak terkench yang amat,

serta 20 minutes to go to 5.30.

nguek!

aku nak post lagu Love The Way You Lie,

sebab semalam aku telah melalui pengalaman agak humbling,

yang datang dari langit kot agaknya,

atau mungkin gangguan emosi

(fine, memang gangguan emosi).

tapi cukuplah ayat doesn't make sense serta highly incomplete tu tersimpan dalam Andy.

yang penting,

main Mafia best.

sekian.

damn. kenapa rindu

sampai bad mood kat office

lari balik rumah

tapi cari tak jumpa.

tak ada.

mana?

shait.

baby nyiaw,

i know you be reading this.

bakal bini you mental.

don't ask why.

an average day?

0900hrs to 0530hrs (sharp), work.

then it's on to our first official formal informal.

(i am now the proud owner of a copy of War and Peace)

got home & bathed the baby girl,

in work clothes.

then the mister dodoi-ed the baby boy,

who is sound asleep beside me.

i should say we are ready for marriage.

no, wait..

we are ready for reality :)

17 & a half weeks to go

on the topic of internship, i have nothing much to say.

sekarang kerja tengah banyak gila sebab july memang merupakan crunch time annual returns.

tapi lepas july & lepas habis annual returns tahun ni aku tak dapat agak apa akan jadi.

i just hope i wont be melanguk-ing at the office,

sebab office di waktu tak ada kerja is super duper bosan.

& silent.

but that's hopefully for august (or later.. or never) to deal with.

harry potter malam semalam was...

(& my theory agak terbukti)

great.

even though this is mainly due to how the story was written in the book,

tapi movienya sangat fast paced & tak bosan & sedar-sedar dah 2 jam.

i loved the part when they were prepping for the battle kat hogwarts.

terasa the fear ok.

rasa macam masa 9/11 dulu,

my 13 year old self bracing for all out world war & mati kena bomb

(serious tak tipu).

tapi, as i said, the battle between harry & voldy was too exaggerated.

dah lah makin lama makin pelik character voldemort ni.

sejak bila the dark lord buat lawak lepas tu gelak sendiri macam angsa?

sedih.

oh touching on the word 'sedih',

i enjoyed myself crying in the cinema semalam.

i don't know whether it's because i'm having my period,

or because i anticipated this movie too much sampai terlalu in the mood,

atau sebab memang,

tapi part-part sedih dalam buku jadi lagi super sedih when i saw it acted out.

macam the dragon & the clankers,

part tu sumpah terasa semangat hermione & spew.

macam seeing fred, remus & tonks dead,

well actually even before that when fred & george were reassuring each other they're fine & they're ready for the war.

gahh sedihnya.

tapi seeing the trio (plus ginny) as 30+ year olds, priceless.

ron sumpah hensem walaupun buncit.

i wouldn't mind having a buncit, 30+ year old husband if that's how he'll look like

(nyeee ikhwan nyee nyeeee :P)

& sekarang aku lapar.

sekian.

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added at 2119hrs

ANWAT HADI HANG ORANG BEDONG KAAAA?!

omaigodddd nak pi raya!

3 dalam 1

melangkah keluar tesco tadi,

ada satu bau aneh yang greet aku.

sedut dalam-dalam,

simpan dalam hati,

then it clicked.

haram jad.

tahan nafas selama mungkin.

that shouldn't be comfortingly familiar.

that should just be utterly wrong.

brain, please update.

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ada sesiapa yang menjaja no telephone aku kepada orang awam ke?

sebab aku dah penat nak terima phone call/sms pelik-pelik dari no pelik-pelik.

tolong lah.. kalau lepas ni nak bagi no telephone dekat lelaki suit-suit/rempit tepi jalan yang korang malas nak layan,

jangan main hembus je no tu.

kesian la sikit kat orang-orang yang selalunya tak bersalah, tak berminat serta tak ada kaitan dengan korang.

kan lagi elok bagi no telephone abah korang ke, abang long korang ke, boyfriend korang ke..

it's not that hard.

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dah 2323hrs & aku berbau ayam mentah.

patut start packing tapi malas nak bergerak.

inilah akibat tidur 12 jam.

can i call matt's baby

(a.k.a. anak tiri mak la nyahh)

Bibing?

because Bing is too simple

(i always prefer 2 syllables)

but Bingie/Bingy sounds weird

& Baby Bing is just too long & too many B's.

you know.. i can just call him Bingham,

it's not that hard.

i should stop ranting.

it all ends 18.7.. for me.

rasa macam bosan pulak kalau tiap-tiap kali nak cerita pasal kerja.

so hari ni aku nak cerita yang aku dah beli ticket harry potter.

sheesh kenapa jadi karangan perihal ni?

anyways..

imma be watching the end this monday night.

honestly sebelum ni macam tak berapa nak excited.

maybe 'cause whatever glimpse we can see from the trailer,

the movie looks highly exaggerated

(i mean, harry & voldemort lompat turun dari one of the towers/the castle? please)

but now that the movie's out,

& i have the tickets (for a show that is 4 days late)

& i'm beginning to see statuses on facebook by people who's seen it,

i can't really say i'm jealous,

just bummed that i am not on my toes menggelabah,

tengok-first-show kind of excited.

i didn't even read the book back.

well, mostly sebab aku malas nak baca the first half of the book that should be somewhat irrelevant to this part 2 movie,

but then it'd be weird to be reading half of the book only.

plus i kind of have this theory that if i don't remember the exact details from the book,

i should enjoy the movie more.

& what better time to try this theory out other than the last movie?

haha pathetic.

aaanyways..

the weekend's coming up..

we'll see what happens.

i kind of had this crazy idea of having a movie 1 to 7 part 1 marathon,

plus read back ALL the books (that would just be insane)

we'll see.

19 weeks to go

as of noon yesterday,

my first week of intern was officially over.

tapi at that time tak terasa sangat kegembiraan melompat-lompat

"yeayyy dah weekend!"

sebab masa tu aku tengah lapar tahap gigit kepala ikhwan,

& not to mention berhabuk from being in the file room since 9 am.

oh & dah ada 2 piles of files menanti tersorok di bawah meja untuk di settlekan semasuk-kerjanya pagi isnin.

aku baru sedar laptop ni dah tak terbukak mungkin seminggu.

penangan kerja.

padan la orang-orang yang dah kerja or intern sebelum ni selalu jawab "penat" bila kami student-student tanya "best tak kerja?"

sebab memang penat.

sebab kalau duduk idle, staring into space tak ada kerja

mesti akan ada yang datang dengan ayat mukadimah "tak ada kerja eh? meh sini akak bagi".

jadi aku rasa lesson yang paling valuable aku belajar minggu ni

is berpura-pura busy tengok manual la, tengok documents lama la, sambil makan marukku.

takpun lari masuk toilet barang 10 minit (nasib baik bersih & wangi. terima kasih aunty)

for other lessons worthy of the log book, there's the time sheets to refer to.

hehe

dalam telinga terngiang-ngiang kak nas' "mami, mami, apa pun tak boleh"

sebab aku tak boleh post satu apa pun.

seperti "yeay dah jumaat, looking forward to the weekend~ weekend~"

kerana esok aku kerja.

& juga aku tak boleh post "couldn't care less about whatever jam, roadblock crap that's happening due to bersih"

'cause,

well..

since aku kerja esok means ikhwan pun kerja esok,

& sekarang dia tak boleh balik rumah,

serta jika dia kental untuk balik rumah jugak,

dia mungkin takkan dapat datang office esok.

so yes.

apa pun tak boleh.

unwinding after day 2 of practical by browsing through Erstwhile Jewelry Co.

all i have to say about this is

beware ikhwan,

your girlfriend's got a very, very expensive taste.

especially the ones featured on the front page yang aku rasa,

tergolong dalam category BAPAK MAHAL.

aih. dah sold dah pun.

anyways,

on the topic of internship,

i have a lot to say.

cuma sekarang rasa macam "pleaseee nooooo. no more thinkingggg"

kalau boleh aku photostat time sheet lepas tu tampal sini

(& juga dalam logbook).

ah that would be heaven.

less than 12 hours to go.

i am honestly more nervous about not being able to sleep tonight compared to what's going to happen tomorrow.

not because i'm being cocky & overconfident,

but because i kind of don't know what to expect,

& it hasn't sunk it yet.

though tadi masa baca-baca evaluation form tu agak cuak lah.

they really expect us to learn ALL this?

meh.

praying this goes well.

praying life goes well :)