hilang dara

percaya tak.. aku tak pernah pergi gig sebelum ni. ye la.. ada la pergi concert/showcase time new year or merdeka. tapi selalunya.. no actually everytime.. aku akan berdiri kat tepi-tepi, hujung-hujung, belakang-belakang. jauh-jauh. sebab aku takut tersepit celah-celah crowd, aku juga tak suka bunyi bising & most importantly aku tak suka kena spray dengan snow spray yang orang selalu main-main time event macam ni.

so tadi.. watching meet uncle hussein (mathari doesn't count sebab masa tu hall kosong & kitorang bersantai atas lantai je).. excuse my language ye.. rasa macam pecah dara. hahah

well.. lebih kurang la kan? kedaraan tak pernah pergi gig.

so yes. i've been WuHuu-ed :D

coming to terms (but not quite there yet)

bear with me.. just this once. i can't help it every time i think of the fact buppy's been missing for almost a month now, i start to tear up. so i'm going to post many many pictures of bebiru to convince myself that i have a new favourite cat & wherever buppy is, she's safe & happy & she deserves to be there. (God please let her be in heaven) see i'm tearing up. *inhales.. exhales* she's fine lya, she's fine.

budak bengong mengintai meja makan

budak manja

budak bodoh makan rumput

nantilah.. when it doesn't hurt that much, i'll write about buppy & why i love her so much. complete with pictures. nanti...

i thought i saw you;
i must be at the edge of insanity.

i guess i do miss you old friend, in a detached kind of way.

sigh.. al-fatihah.

(1648hrs 10042009)



it didn't register at first. i saw someone & i thought he looked familiar. i know he wasn't exactly someone i know, just that he looked familiar. he was shorter, probably chubbier. but his walk, his face (eventhough just from the side), his clumsiness just looked familiar. & i was trying to get a clear view of his face, to make sure if it was someone else who looked so much like you, or you yourself. & all this while i wasn't aware that it's you whom he looked like. as he went into the train, & i lost all chances of seeing his face properly, it registered. no.. it can't be you.

& then it got to me. because i still do feel like i know you so well despite having last seen you 8 years ago. god. this is long overdue. is it enough that i pray for you everyday?

i'll be waking up from this nightmare anytime now

"Kita semua johan kecuali krs p" she made it sound so simple.

i knew it was coming. she's been telling me the team is weak. maybe i feel this way because i couldn't do anything about it.

"Smk petaling. They were good" at least it's not MGS, or worse hartamas. but SMP? i'm surprised. & i'm glad it's them.

Then the whole truth of it collapsed on me. two consecutive goosebumps ran down my spine, one immediately after another. & silently i thank god i'm not going to be able to go to wilayah.

oh god.. how do i ever face "the dudes"?

fuck man. FUCK. we can't have lost at zon. we can't possibly lose at zon, ever! FUCK!!

Graduation Song

thanks to the birthday present "pear got for me", i could once again listen to all those CDs i burned back then. was checking that each one of them still work when i came to yun's farewell CD. second track, graduation song.

"And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track"

a rush, no, a FLOOD of memories just tsunami-ed across my mind. those times at primary, gatherings during secondary & even now.. things didn't change, as much as we expected it to do change, it didn't. yeah so we have other friends, we went to other schools, heck we're living in not just different states but different countries. we keep in touch, that's what matters right?

god i miss all of you. this summer one more gathering ok? :D

"As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We will still be
Friends forever"

now that's more like it :)