maulana & swensens.

"i only like the chocolate in the bottom & the nuts on top" - Sarveen Kandiah.

i just think this is funny as hell. bahahahahh

thank you for the ice cream & the conversations (yang walaupun in easy, breezy tones tapi sebenarnya sangat deep & serious. hehh.)

amidst macam-macam emosi yang bertindih antara satu sama lain.

amidst thoughts; yang frustrating, yang annoying, yang angry, yang rindu, yang penat, juga yang sayang.

this, i know for sure.

& it's calming as hell.

it may not make much sense.

heck, i haven't been able to make sense of it. yet.

but i know for sure.

i love you!
&
thank you 4 your music

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yang rindu tu, itu untuk awak.
sebab, for now, saya tak boleh (dan tak cukup kental) untuk pergi visit,
would you mind visiting me instead?
please?

i love how billy talent's videos make me feel. though i can't say much since i've only saw 2 so far. but heck they're good. i really do love how they make me feel.

Saint Veronika

enjoy :)

of a movie named after a breath mint.

its really not a good time to blog 'cause my brain feels like slush.. & lets not go to how it became slush.. i just want to write this down.

saw eclipse with imara tadi.

they, again, placed muse's song at the bimbo-est possible moment. i mean "omg i love this song! let's dance" is utterly inappropriate for muse. even if it's nsc. heck.. even if matt ever decided to write salsa music. haih.

but! jacob was hot. but that's not the point. i like seeing him on screen. i like seeing who he represents. i like knowing it could be as easy for me. i like seeing jacob.

& i can't think much else anymore.

so.. thanks wansayang for walking into MNG, & annai for never changing. i love all of yous!

wah.. adakah sudah seminggu tidak blog? i guess bila ilham tak datang, dia memang tak datang. atau mungkin sebab seminggu ni penuh dengan roller coaster emosi yang telah mengganggu proses penggantian puasa aku. ye, saya belum habis ganti puasa =/

but not to worry! i foresee the ability to do so by the end of next week :D

i just came home from watching despicable me for the second time (kali ini dalam format 3D!) dan baru juga tengok video pelik tetapi benar kat blog maria (that chick is Disturbing - dengan bold, capital, red-coloured 'D') jadi saya agak disturbed. dan high.

i should probably go & pretend to sleep. another 8.30 a.m class tomorrow. haiyah.

of insensitivity? or too much sensitivity?

& now, one thing that comes from the heart. deep, deep from this heart, that somehow, stubbornly still feels the pain even though i keep on telling it to not give a fuck.

i guess the most fucked up thing of having friends (especially lifelong ones) is that you can't fucking divorce them. but (liiight bulbb...) you can get a restraining order on them? hahaa but that's beside the point. somehow they are always in your face. the more fucked up it is, the more in your face it is.

i fucking don't understand why i still fucking give a rats ass about it.

one can tell i'm fucking pissed. haha not because of the issue itself though. i'm pissed because i'm pissed. geddit?

but! let's lighten the mood by saying my newly discovered "calm yourself down hilyah" mantra.
"sooooo fluffeh!!!"

people, go watch Despicable Me. even if it will cost you your life. it's worth it i tell you!

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here's one hell of an inspiring post from iwrotethisforyou. it will be erased in 24 hours' time, & it saddens me because this post makes perfect sense of what the world is. of why i am so against anything&everything mainstream. so i really hope the person who wrote this doesn't mind that i want to keep this & share it with my readers at the same time. please :)

"Thursday, July 15, 2010

Editor's Note

We live in a world that’s obsessed with fart jokes, hipster dogs and top 40 charts. Stupid is funny and easy. Stupid wins awards in France.

Stupid doesn’t change the menu because it knows you liked pie last time you came in, so why offer you anything else. Stupid wants you to watch the movie based on the action figure based on the comic book based on the book you read when you were a kid.

Stupid wants you to write the same story that everyone else writes, in the same way, with the same cover. Stupid wants you to be the Neil Gaiman of Mongolia or the Jackie Collins of Southern Sudan. Instead of the you of anywhere.

Stupid doesn’t take chances. Stupid is afraid of new.

Each day, the amount of people who visit this site could fill the Sydney Opera house three times over. But I know, if someone took a video of me getting drunk and falling over a dog outside a bar, it would get more hits in a day than I’ve gotten in four years.

Stupid, again, often wins.

The official song of the soccer World Cup can be roughly translated as

“Do the job, where do you come from, it is mine, wait, come.”

You would also be surprised to learn that South America is not the same place as South Africa and that the last time they shared something, besides the word “South”, it was when the general land mass was referred to as Pangaea.

Stupid wants you to fill out a form before you can fill out a form. Stupid sends you an email to tell you that you have too many emails. Stupid designs a phone that blinks and flashes its lights to tell you that its running out of power. (haha i swear this annoys the hell out of me! duduk diam-diam lah kalau dah tahu battery low!) Stupid puts up big, bright banner ads that tell you that a psychic somewhere can help you get rich. And stupid makes a lot of money like that.

But letting stupid get you down, is stupid.

Carry on being who you are and trying to do things in new, interesting and unfamiliar ways no matter how uncomfortable they make the rest of the world feel.

Because not everyone, is stupid."

Sweethearts.

of early sunday morning & unreliable road signs.

of multi-animal shows, animal printed hats & "lions!"

of getting tired of walking & succumbing to the buggy ride. (no, no, noone cried. shhh...)

of glorious foods (morning, mid morning, mid morning #2, & finally lunch)

of awesome abang boy & queen lya.

& of course, equally awesome mikhail, qayyim & qaisara.

of the long awaited zoo trip :)

oh! oh!
& of two of my most favourite animals! :D

because when i dream, i dream of you.

i just want you to know that whatever i said, no matter how absurd, i meant it.

gosh i really wish we can talk like that for real.

"... You could be the one who listens to my deepest inquisitions
You could be the one I'll always love
I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before..."

i'll be there as soon as i can, sayang.

told you i follow their private lives like a religion.

i am actually googling gaia. serious. i myself cant believe it. but i kind of get what she might be feeling? matt going all gooey & mushy about kate. gross. i am so obviously on team gaia :P

but i know we all don't know the real, full story about why a 7 year (7 year, right?) relationship, that consisted 4 years of engagement, went down the drain. i just hope matt's not settling for kate. please matt. marrying an american celebrity? what a cliche.

oh n btw, MTV, they broke up mid december. that's only 7 months ago. not a full fat year.

:(

i am officially unhealthily obsessed with Bells. (the term "my car" sounds like i'm bragging. so let's just refer to it as Bells ok?)

unhealthy i tell you. to the point that i am emotionally disturbed that this small part jatuh & hilang tadi. sad. depressed. inconsolable.

Bells, sayang.. i'm so sorry for not taking good care of you. i should have been more careful :'(

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ok tukar topic jap.. nah si Shuha nak blogging gak.. silakan..

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bgfffffffffffffffffffffffffffb gggg/
ooooooo
ayla nazsiuhai[ )rt


hahh.. pakai kaki pun boleh~

pictures from Glastonbury are so awesome that i'm feeling depressed. :(((


can i say i miss Matt?

btw, Jepp. red pants FTW :D

stop messing with me head.

the used ni emo kan sebenarnya? hahah maaf, hari ni hari menyelami the emo side of the used.

tadi, Poetic Tragedy.

sekarang, Meant to Die.

ah suka! :D

"So maybe I took a little too much.
Maybe life didn't want this part of me.
It it helps to know, I never let you go.
I'm sorry that I lost my mind

So baby, I took a little too much.
Maybe you sucked the life right out of me.
I should have let you know I never meant to go.
Sure I lost my mind, but I never really meant to die."