semalam adalah hari "team building". actually nak blog cuma bila nadia dah upload gambar, tapi macam tak ada tanda-tanda dia nak upload pun. so gasak lah. bosan (even though bedtime dah lepas oh well)

melayan nafsu binatang setelah selesai berpuasa sebulan (dan beraya seminggu). menghasut salah seorang ahli untuk ponteng kelas (well, dia yang hasut diri sendiri. kitorang dah nekad nak tinggal dia sebenarnya muahahah). 1 regular super supreme pan pizza, 2 mushroom soup, 4 batang breadstix, 2 pinggan pasta, 4 gelas air lembut (soft drink). & seterusnya half dozen big apple donuts. mm-mmm good~ bak kata iklan campbell soup. & of course, what girls do best, shoe shopping. masing-masing bikin havoc dalam kedai "oi cantik tak kalau aku pakai kasut ni time convo?" almaklum, first time nak pakai jubah dan apa-nama-topi-4-segi-tu? malas nak google.

good times. hopefully selepas sesi "team building" ni, kerjasama untuk assignment-assignment akan datang lebih mantap *cough* sina-yang-belanja-pizza-sebab-dia-tak-pernah-buat-kerja-sebelum-ni *cough* hahah ohh macam-macam..

suka hati aku lah aku tak puas hati

mau complain yang bukan-bukan please. tak mahu baca, tak perlu baca.

benci tengok dia merokok. it's bad enough i have a boyfriend who smokes, who's weak enough to not be able to quit smoking. tolong lah, jangan merokok depan aku. benci ok? there's no other word to describe it.

why can't malaysians be punctual? kau ingat aku hidup untuk tunggu semua orang? & let's extend this a wee bit further. aku juga tidak hidup untuk take orders dari semua orang dan dikerah macam-macam oleh semua orang ok?

& someone's been using my car. like everyday. & i know who. tapi please lah. anda ada kereta sendiri ok. KITA SEMUA ada kereta sendiri. tak suka lah malam tadi park kereta tempat lain tiba-tiba siang hari kereta dah berpindah tempat. & lagi tak suka bila lagu dan terforward-forward kedepan bila aku naik kereta aku balik.

aku sakit perut.

assignment ni sumpah membosankan. how the hell do you do a summary again? itu macam cerita 4 tahun lepas ok? please. my memory isn't that good.

oh oh dan apa kena dengan orang yang pergi kelas tak bawak telinga? kenapa perlu tanya soalan bodoh yang even aku yang short term memory loss ni pun boleh ingat lecturer dah bagitau dalam kelas. nak reply message tu costs money ok? nak aku reply kerap-kerap, sopan-sopan, baik-baik, sila top up kan.

hmm apa lagi ah nak complain? oklah one last one.

boleh tak buat mamak yang non-smoking? bencilah balik from lepak session dari hujung rambut sampai hujung kuku kaki sampai ke baju-baju dalam semua sekali bau asap rokok. annoying ok? it gives me sorethroat, it just plain bugs me.

mungkin ada satu penyelesaian untuk semua ini (except part aku sakit perut tu); belajar rajin-rajin, carik kerja bagus, dapat gaji banyak-banyak. supaya:

1. boleh goda lelaki sesuka hati, sampai jumpa yang perfect tak hisap rokok segala
2. tak perlu jadi hamba semua orang. biar orang pulak tunggu aku
3. setiap orang yang sibuk nak pakai-pakai kereta aku, aku belikan je kereta untuk dia
4. (aku sakit perut ni tak boleh nak bantu la. or maybe boleh bina toilet cantik-cantik biar selesa nak melabur)
5. dah kerja & kaya apa jadahnya nak buat assignment lagi?
6. again, tak perlu associate dengan orang-orang yang redundant
7. dan paling penting, bukak business mamak non-smoking pastu jadikan franchise

yeah :D

note to self: next lime green classic book will be "1984"

BBC 6 Music podcast titled 20092009. word association. matt's part was just beautiful. i'm not just saying it because i'm obsessed with him. but just listen to him describe "love" & "space". it's just an unexpected version. totally different from what you hear everyday. totally beautiful (& i just spelt it "beaufitul". nice)

& while we're at it, check out behind the scene at royal albert hall on muse.mu under media player. talk about playing by ear. genius. hahah

ramblings

sudah lama tak update blog, kan? well, lama enough lah.

what with raya, getting The Resistance, a birthday, to name a few. memang wajar distracted.

tapi tidak. actually malas nak duduk depan comp sebab it reminds me of the assignment yang due isnin ni yang aku LANGSUNG TAK START LAGI. haihh. tolong saya.

anyways, The Resistance huh. got the dvd pack. LOVE matt's antics in the video. especially the booty-shaking masa dom duk buat tarian memanggil hujan dia tu (can't remember which song. undisclosed desires kot. it is, sorta, the weirdest danciest song on the album kan?). tapi ada sedikit kekecewaan lah. tang acknowledgements tu. "thanks to gaia..." noooo tak perlulah mention itu nama DDD': jealous ok?

hah.. cakap pasal gaia. semalam aku tanya pear "are you jealous of matt?". "nope. not at all" katanya. "cuba you panggil matt, dia datang tak? you panggil i, i datang kan.." katanya lagi. he's got a point. hahah

eid

honestly, i have other more important things to do.

like my assignments, house chores, etc.

but, malas.

so anyway, i'm not exactly feeling all this right now (i have a knack for not really feeling anything when i'm hungry, other than hunger). but the other day i was full, baru lepas buka puasa, baru lepas mandi. you know, the mellow, kenyang-tahap-high feeling. & then i realized i miss this oh so much.

2005

2006

2008

& many more. but these are the raya moments.
i'm not feeling it. i'm not exactly missing it, & i especially don't feel like it's raya.
hopefully i'll feel differently after buka :P

Uprising

http://www.mtvmusic.com/muse_uk_/videos/435512/uprising.jhtml

you know, i just realized (ok not JUST la, lama dah. tapi baru acknowledge) that if i'm not feeling so strongly for matt, i might just be in love with dom.

oh well. whichever. hahah


btw.. the link. yes, the link. larger-than-life teddy bears? or barbie-sized muse? you decide.

is it an effect of growing up or is it just me?

or is this what people call "the grass is always greener on the other side" syndrome?

or is it just because?

sometimes i get super excited anticipating for something, only to lose interest the minute i get it.

sometimes i just don't feel at all.

most of the time, i feel like something great is just around the corner, but never here.

i'm not making much sense.

one split second of feeling i'm near you.

& that's on youtube.

kalau kau betul-betul depan aku, aku mati heart attack kot.

then it'd be a total waste.

hahahahahahahahaha.




oh did i tell you? i'm christening my car "bells".

achtung!

jaga-jaga.

i'm getting used to your absence.

maybe too used to it.

maybe even slightly detached.

jaga-jaga.

this is not a good sign (for you).

$$$

ok i'm seriously getting annoyed with ptptn.

MANA WANG PINJAMANKU?!

dah seminggu kot borang perubahan maklumat tu sampai kat korang. & no excuses, last monday korang tak cuti ok?

kalau by tomorrow wang pinjamanku tak masuk lagi, macam mana aku nak beli album muse on monday? (provided monday ni jugak JUGAK it's available in stores kat sini)

ye. tau. menyalahgunakan wang pinjaman untuk beli album. tapi suka hati lah. kalau tak beli jiwa tak tenteram. nanti tak boleh study. hence beli album muse pakai wang pinjaman = justified.

lekas lekas lekas wahai ptptn. saya mahu wang pinjaman saya.

definitely irresistible.

*sedang mempertimbangkan*

*should i?*

*no i shouldn't*

*tapi nak...*

*ahh tak payah lah. sendiri tahu sudaaah*

*ok takpelah. sikit je*

one question: pernah rasa nak nangis dengar lagu?



bukan sebab lyrics sedih, bukan sebab melody sayu. tapi sebab hebat. sebab masuk menusuk (in a good way). sebab...
“If I’d been listening to Berlioz or Beethoven in the 19th century, I would probably have said to you, ‘I’m hearing the sound of God.’ In the modern secular world, and given the fact that I’m not religious, I turn to other subjects, be it ideas about space, or political questions.”
... he interpreted the "hearing the sound of God" part dengan sungguh tepat.

eh. terpanjang pulak :P

listening to Undisclosed Desires with the lyrics window open.

"You may be a sinner,
But your innocence is mine"

this is my Dark Shines part 2.

suka hati aku lah :D

& the countdown to oct 23rd starts now.

prepare to scream.




DARREN SHAN THE MOVIE!!!!!!!!!!
aaaAAAaaaaAAAaaaAaaaAA!!! *screams bloody murder*




Cirque du Freak: The Vampire's Assistant.
i'm excited. FUCKING excited.
i'm nervous. i don't want them to spoil this like they spoiled harry potter.
i'm puzzled. are they like going to make all 12 books into movies?
i'm EXCITED!

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa bessssssttttttttttttt

another untitled post

bila posts orang lain menusuk kalbu.
dan rasa rindu itu timbul.
flashes of memories.
waking up sobbing my throat out.
i swear to God i've never cried that hard.
bila setiap kali terpandang jam tepat pukul 09:23.
that sharp pain.
& everything in between.

is it because it's that time of the month?
or is it because it's that particular month in the year?

dia berbicara tentang had dan batasan.
dimana kekuasaan Tuhan itu wujud dalam kelemahan kita.
this is had & batasan at its most extreme.
this is kekuasaan Tuhan at its greatest.
this is my biggest weakness.

track 4

"Nowhere to go
I'm not leaving, I'm not going
I'm not kissing you goodbye...
On my own
I'm nothing, just bleeding
I'm not kissing you goodbye..."

chey drama lebih. padahal nak naik tidur je..


it's raining, it's pouring;
the old man woman is snoring...

goodnight! :D happy ni major headache dah selesai.. bebas merdeka (for now) hee

what is this i see on my blog?

habuk?

oh damn!



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term paper due tomorrow
presentation next tuesday
japanese reading & oral test next wednesday
two quizzes on that same wednesday

i need a breather.
or matt bellamy, in person, whichever.