Isu-isu semasa.

Harini macam2 issue dok serabut dalam kepala,
Masing2 bersangkut-paut dan saling menyemaki antara satu sama lain.
Firstly, handbag.
Ni semua salah Ika dok meroyan pasal duck KL bag tu.
Tapi aku taknak pun bag tu sebab gedabak sgt.
Cuma dia membawa perhatian aku to the fact yang aku sebenarnya dah takyah guna mommy bag.
Hilwa skrg dah ada backpack dia sendiri yang dia usung kehulu kehilir, mostly ada 4 teddy bear kecik je dalam tu.
So boleh sgt aku nak transfer baju spare, pampers & botol air kids dalam tu,
Which will leave me with only my wallet, nursing cover, tissue, wet wipes.. benda kecik2. Takyah diaper bag.
Tapi aku dah terbiasa sgt dok bawak backpack jugak skrg ni sampai tahap nak start browse utk handbag pun aku taktau nak mula kat mana.
I have officially forgotten how to be a lady.
Tapi sebenarnya masalah aku ni sgt berkait dengan babywearing jugak.
Which brings us to the other issues in mind, namely my beloved tulas & issue stroller.
To be honest, aku dah tak larat nak babywear Izzaz lama2 especially bila grocery shopping etc.
Serious,  balik tu confirm terus sakit bahu, pinggang, lutut.
So haritu aku dok sebut2 kat Ikhwan we might need a 2nd stroller or upgrade ke tandem stroller.
Itu dah satu issue, sbb confirm Hilwa takkan redha kena jalan while adik dpt duduk dalam stroller dia.
Nak beli mcm baby throne bodoh as 2nd stroller boleh tapi bila keluar leceh sampai 2 stroller nak kena bawak.
Nak beli tandem mahal & confirm lagi besar dari peg perego skrg ni yg cukup2 je masuk boot.
Pastu bila dah cite pasal tak larat nak babywear confirm la means kena jual Tula.
Tapi nak jual toddler, kang Izzaz makin besar stroller tak beli2 lagi pastu menyesal takde SSC utk pakai.
Kalau jual standard, dia masih belum muat dalam toddler.
Pastu tadi ye olde Slytherin-themed Turkish towel jumpsac yg aku dok usha dah bertahun got bumped up on fsot.
Harga confirm lepas kalau jual dua2 tula.
Size 17inch perfect untuk Izzaz skrg.
The problem is, my only experience with jumpsac yang Auroray tu dulu tak best.
But that was baby size la.. I know size can greatly affect comfort.
Tula pun macam tu.. standard never felt as weightless as toddler is to me.
Seller tu dah siap offer kalau nak meet up utk testing pun dia no hal.
But then kalau betul jatuh cinta, kena go through the process of selling not 1 but 2 tulas.
& seeing how the market is now, it could take a looooong time.
Pastu kalau dah ada wcssc handwoven baru, nak pakai dengan handbag mcm mana pulak?
Ni soalan cepu emas.
I have lost whatever bit of fashion sense I had.
Help. How do I un-mom myself?

Heroes, idols & goals.

We just finished watching narcos last night.
At first I got hooked because it was a good crime show.
It gave me what the Mentalist did in its peak.
None of the lovey dovey drama shit.
But then it ended up being a love story, & a bloody fantastic one in the end.
I cried when they finally shot Pablo dead.
Legit sobbed.
Honestly right now my hero, my relationship goals, my role model on how to be a wife & mother,
Is Tata, Pablo's wife.
I think I'm obsessed with her.
Among all of the stuff that I've read relating to this show,
One of it mentions how the real life Murphy & Pena refused offers of recreating the story in the past because all of these people want to paint Pablo in a majestic light.
& supposedly this version of the story shows pretty much the exact truth of what happened.
So I guess that backfired because most of the time I could only focus on how much Pablo loved his family.
You can even see it in how he targets every single one of his enemies by picking out their family.
& he started tripping all over the place when he lost his cousin, & for the first time he felt his family's safety being threatened.
Shit can't get anymore romantic than that.
It's a shame he didn't know his limit & quit when he still could.
Would have been an even more epic story if he was still alive & with his family.
Dude was casually losing $2billion a year to spoilage/rats.
I'm pretty sure if he just gave it up, suck it all up & served his time in that prison he made himself then he could sustain his life for many years to come.
But still.. the ego of a man.
& even then, after everything that went down,
After living in all the luxuries that one of the richest person in the world can give you,
Then forced to go on the run,
Standing loyally by your husband when an entire nation calls for his blood,
Then having him killed & displayed like an animal by cops,
Tata single handedly met with her late husband's enemies to negotiate the safety of her children,
Took them away to 3 different countries before she's allowed to stay,
& rebuilt her life from scratch.
Even raised her kids to be decent human beings after all that.
Hats freaking off.
Idol forever.
Now I'm gonna go hunt for the book their son wrote, & I have a feeling I'm not stopping there.