Sudah kena choptwit.

I should probably try posting pictures on this new blogger thing,

Hopefully it's not as leceh as dulu.

So, because really, what else would I talk about?

I'm engaged!

But sadly pictures are in my phone, facebook & Imara's camera.

Nantilah okay

When I'm not too mamai I will try downloading the pictures

& use it to try out the new (hopefully improved) blogger.

But whatever it is,

I am glad the day turned out how it did.

Despite tidur yang sangat restless (kept getting dreams that I forgot to do this & that),

& terjaga pukul 6 pagi sebab Indi (the bb) jatuh katil,

& tidur balik sambung mimpi-mimpi cemas,

& lastly bangun pukul 10 lebih dalam keadaan puyeng.

Walaupun bergelut dengan rambut, tapi hasilnya sangat puas hati (for amateurs like us),

Tetapi make up sangat best, first time vain tengok gambar sendiri sebab cantik hewhew,

Thank you so much Imara Natchiar!

A free and easy meet between two families,

& demam Layla yang menyebabkan Yaya tak jadi hantar dia & Ilhan ke rumah nenek,

So my family was complete.

First time dapat bunga dari saudara Ikhwan (hewhew lagi).

Banyak sangat gambar best sampai taktau nak pilih buat profile picture,

& macam-macam lagi emosi & memory yang dah bercampur baur & bertindih sampai aku rasa macam aku berterabur sekarang ni.

Oh god do I need sleep?!

But honestly, thank you all,

Syukur to Allah swt for today.

<3

sorely missed.

Honestly?
April 3 post je? (campur ni, 4).
Sampaikan blogger dah baru pun tak sedar bila.
Tadi duduk bercerita dengan mama pasal kawad wilayah pagi tadi.
Kadet Polis yang kalah tu mama kata,
mungkin sebab ketua platun dia buat banyak mistakes,
& naturally apa semua yang mama cakap lepas tu dah tak berapa register dalam otak,
yang terbayang cumalah awak,
berdiri tegak,
baju kelabu, seluar biru gelap,
dengan selempang awak,
mantap, tegap.
Tapi sampai part kawad statik, awak bantai tak buka barisan.
nasib baik awak menang, awak tahu.
Nasib baik pergi jugak Kuala Kangsar tu.
Nasib baik saya ikut.
Sebab ini, ini-ini semua,
benda-benda yang paling jelas saya ingat pasal awak,
sampai sekarang,
& mungkin bawa ke mati.
Mungkin sekarang perangai saya nak tolak jauh-jauh je segala.
Dengar abah cerita favourite kitten mati kena baham kucing jantan,
pendam, simpan, tolak jauh-jauh.
Dengar jiran-jiran meninggal,
paling-paling pun berair mata sekejap,
lepas tu pendam, simpan, tolak jauh-jauh.
Tapi bila sampai cerita pasal awak,
kalah.
Entah kenapa.
What are you to me?
It's a question I still fail to answer.


Ahh.. sekarang aku tahu kenapa terasa tadi,
kenapa melancholic.
Al-Fatihah to yet another friend of mine,
Edzuan Zakaria,
I'm so very sorry I didn't do as I last promised you.
You'll be sorely missed.

rsn.

kesyukuran itu datang dalam rupa seorang jejaka,

yang mungkin telah kehilangan terlalu banyak,

tetapi masih berupaya untuk memberikan lebih banyak.

buat aku,

memaksa aku,

berfikir dalam-dalam, masak-masak,

tentang apa yang aku perkatakan,

persoalkan,

apa yang aku fikirkan, juga, walaupun tidak diluahkan.

kesyukuran itu datang dalam rupa seorang kawan.

mungkin inilah hikmahnya anda dah dua kali kena cancel,

sebab aku masih belum cukup belajar,

masih belum cukup sedar.

risau nanti awak di sana, di sini aku lupa.

the most basic things,

a father, a mother, a future husband,

a life protected, catered for,

don't forget to be thankful.

Updates.

almost two weeks of no blogging.
malas pun ada,
takde point pun ada gak.
updates on wedding stuff: dress dah tempah & kebaya dah beli.
sesungguhnya Semua House & Jalan Masjid India itu adalah syurga pengantin.
2 weeks to go to the day.
project jahit bunga kat alas dulang dah tergendala mungkin seminggu, mungkin lebih.
same goes as bersenam menguruskan badan.
mama got busy, i got lazy.
& ramai pulak jiran-jiran tetangga yang passed away.
the most shocking was Pakcik Tembon.
sampai sekarang terbayang lagi muka dia, terngiang suara dia.
aside from daddy, dia la pakcik dalam taman zaaba yang aku paling ramah sekali.
juga dia sangat cool.
itu lah dia, ajal & maut.
silalah, please, appreciate semua yang ada disekeliling sekarang juga.
duduk saja-saja pun diorang boleh pergi.
oh & lagi satu, Pn Ilmiah pun passed away jugak sama hari dengan Pakcik Tembon.
agak terduduk aku semalam masa dapat tau.
walaupun tak pernah belajar dengan dia,
tapi aku ingat dia sangat-sangat.
al-fatihah untuk semua.

Earth Hour

i was so restless that i actually picked a fight with ikhwan over no valid reason,

& after watching the earth hour video someone random posted on facebook,

i realized what i was so annoyed about.

that is some comments i read on twitter & facebook regarding this whole event.

some people actually went to the point of saying things such as

'oohhh so you think switching off you lights for 1 hour will make so much difference to the earth?'

yes.

it damn well will.

that's the problem with human fucking beings.

you think you're the centre of the fucking universe.

you litter, you leave taps running, you throw away food,

always thinking 'alah sehelai tisu je, what difference would it make?'

well let me put it into perspective for you.

why don't all 7 billion of us on this planet go and throw one piece of tissue on your front yard?

or better yet, why don't all 7 billion of us go and give you 1 tight slap each?

i wonder what 7 billion slaps would do to a person.

interesting.

i'd like to think i was raised well.

i almost, almost.. came close to it, almost broke up with a guy just because he threw out a piece of plastic out the window of my car.

no worries, i did eventually break up with him.

& that happened 5 years ago,

so no, i don't forget these things.

so please.

every time you selfishly think you are insignificant enough to be blamed for all these problems our world is having,

please remember there are 7 billion more of you.

(& remember the 7 billion slaps on your face)