Creation.

So I found the perfect quote to describe what parenting feels to me, & it's from a fictional serial killer lol. Swear to God I burst out laughing & it definitely wasn't a funny scene & Ikhwan was looking at me like I'm really finally losing it. Oh well, still gotta immortalize it here:

"It's strange to have a creation out there. A deeply mutated version of yourself, running loose and screwing everything up... I wonder if this is how parents feel."

-Dexter, season 2, don't ask me which episode I think it's the 2nd last one.

Sorry kids, y'all are just weird.

29th.

Eh dah 10th March tak post wishlist lagi lulz.
Sebab?
Terus terang tahun ni rasa paling takde nafsu nak spend duit, rasa paling nak berjimat cermat.
Plan awalnya nak celebrate birthday in advance kat hotel weekend​ ni pun aku cancel sebab serious takde nafsu.
Dari bayar 300 satu malam ya Allah banyaknya benda lain aku boleh buat dengan duit tu.
Semalam baru bagitau Ikhwan birthday aku nanti nak pergi check mata,
Sebab last tukar spect masa pregnant Izzaz dulu,
Tu pun tak update power sebab tgh pregnant kan.
So birthday aku nanti nak gi check power, kalau kena tukar lense then tu kira as birthday present dari Ikhwan lol.
Sekarang ni penting aku nak buang benda dari wishlist dalam phone aku ni.
Check mata.
Usb-c cable spare.
Thumbdrive baru.
Tukar screen protector yang rongak dikunyah Hilwa (yes I'm almost positive my daughter swallowed tempered glass).
Tukar bulb lampu kat kitchen rumah aku ni sebab warna dia kuning, aku nak warna fluorescent white.
Nak baiki sink dapur yang leaking.
Moving on kepada benda yang more indulgent & less practical.
Nak potong rambut sbb rimas.
Serious rasa nak cantas buang part karat-karat ni,
Biar tinggal jadi crewcut pun takpe.
Tapi nanti Ikhwan confirm tak lalu kat aku dah lulz.
Nak handbag kenduri baru, tapi aku dok bukak Zalora fv bagai takde langsung yang berkenan.
Awat handbag sekarang semua sepesen pastu huduh?
Last.. teringin nak beli makeup.
Pastu simpan buat pekasam hahah.
Ok dah cukup berangan.
Baik pulun pi jual tudung so that first 6 wishes kat atas aku boleh settle pakai duit sendiri.
So yes.. my wish for my 29th birthday is to be financially independent!

Berleter sikit.

Terasa nak membebel.
Tinggal budak-budak tadi pergi celebrate birthday Imara.
Ada kot 3 jam setengah berpisah.
Otw balik call Ikhwan suara dia pitching dah lari.
Sampai rumah bukak pintu Izzaz lari mai dengan "mamaaaaaaaaa" panjang berjela.
See.. this is why mothers need a timeout.
Perasan diperlukan dirindui yang datang saat kau balik tu memang boost mood kasih sayang barang seminggu dua.
Pastu tadi siap-siap nak keluar kat rumah mama,
So semangat la aku makeup bagai.
Sbb makeup aku memang aku dah tauk habis masa pindah haritu,
Dan dalam family aku memang mama je yang jenis makeup sekarang lol.
Fefeeling cantik gila la sepanjang malam.
Siap berangan nak pi beli makeup satu set dengan facial wash travel size so senang cuci bila kat luar, cari makeup bag comel-comel.
Pastu sekarang ni aku dok berperang rasa pedih muka ala-ala chemical burn yg jadi everytime lepas cuci makeup.
No I don't use any makeup remover.
Aku pakai facial wash biasa aku tadi, cuci 2 kali sampai hilang rasa minyak kat muka,
Siap tepek moisturizer lagi lepas tu.
I've felt this way post makeup everytime dari zaman muda-mudi rajin beli makeup remover dulu, ke zaman belasah pakai wet wipes, sampai sekarang.
I hate it. I don't know if everyone goes through it but I'm sure at least some people do, & I don't understand why people would choose to go through it.
So no.. I don't think I'll start applying makeup regularly ever.
Pastu next issue ni aku nak cerita dah lama pastu tangguh pastu lupa pastu mcm dah tak kisah.
I've sold both my Tulas.
Started dengan ada wcssc yang aku dah lamaaaa berkenan naik for sale.
Harga memang mampu kalau aku jual 2-2 Tula.
So aku jual 1 dulu, testing. Yang kakak punya.
It got sold within a day.
Pastu Ikhwan gaji aku selamba bayar lagi half.
Rezeki lagi minah tu mai hantar kat rumah.
Dan-dan bawak pi jalan sakan weekend tu,
& I concluded it's comfortable enough to replace Izzaz's Tula.
Again, that one got sold within a day jugak alhamdulillah.
Lega & happy toksah cerita.
Memula sayu jugak thinking it's the end of an era for me.
But oh well, in one transaction I became the owner of an Oscha roses, a full wcssc, & in the Slytherin colours I've coveted for since the dawn of time maybe.
Truly worth it!