Term.

Pregnancy is falling asleep for 3 solid hours at 8pm,
Simply because half an hour of walking at a mall just wiped out every ounce of energy you had.
Then you stay up the entire freaking night because you've recharged & did nothing but eat since waking up in the dead of the night.
I've been so bloody dark about pregnancy haven't I?
I've got a maximum of 3 weeks to enjoy being a brat & having my husband all to myself,
(Also having the luxury of focusing all of my attention to my husband only)
I don't quite know how to savour the moment.
I just wish it would rain a bit so I wouldn't sweat so much on top of getting constant heartburns & back/stomach pains.
End of rant.

Miracles.

I definitely don't belong to the 'pregnancy is a miracle' group of mothers.
I used to think people who are like this is a bit poyo.
Now I know they're just down right delusional.
So I'm gonna write this down lest I forget the beautiful details of pregnancy.
Hehh.
Let's start with my best friend, heartburn.
I didn't think it could be worse,
But now I get heartburn even if I don't eat.
So makan means heartburn, tak makan means perut kosong stomach juices overflow & heartburn.
Clap clap. So beautiful.
Next, back pain.
My shoulders are hating me on how much I sleep on the sides now.
& when I try sleeping on the back, my lower back will start whining & hurting like the little brat she is.
Is it too much to say to people, no presents please, just give me a shoulder massage.
I can no longer enjoy lazing around watching TV, & it's even hurting me when I sit at my desk at work.
I... Just don't know.
Moving on.
Insomnia.
Yeap it has started.
On random nights I just stay bright & alert til morning, no matter how I try to fall asleep.
& then I randomly wake up so unnecessarily early, like now for instance, & brain just goes 'ok! Straight to overdrive'.
The following point is majorly related to the waking up early part above.
& is also my ultimate favourite part of being pregnant.
Losing all control of your bladder.
Seriously.
It has a mind of its own now.
& when it says go, it'll go.
Its favourites are when I'm coughing or sneezing.
Also when I'm in my deepest of sleep & feeling most relaxed.
I am seriously considering adult diapers.
I've got no more shame, zero dignity left. Lol.
Last (as far as I can remember, for now) is the nesting urge.
Which isn't so bad, really, all you wanna do is clean & organise & pack.
But then fate throws a curve ball & makes it so freaking hard for you to even do laundry.
Someone will ALWAYS beat you to the machine, or space on the clothesline.
& when you actually get your turn, the machine fucking breaks down.
& thanks to the previous point, you're peeing all over the fresh new sheets you just changed.
& it just bugs you cause you just can't catch a freaking break & have things nice & clean at least for once.
Screw you hormones! You're ridiculous.
Junior is kicking up a storm in there since I jumped out of bed & ran to the toilet.
I think it thinks I'm mad at it.
No, it's not your fault.
It's all this stupid hormones that makes my muscles all relax & think it's OK to not do their job properly.
I now understand completely why people beg & plead for the baby to come out already.
So far I have had one night where I just cried & cried until I choked & started caughing & threw up in my waste basket.
All because I just couldn't sleep.
I don't think that'll be an exclusive case.
So.. Here's to the beautiful home stretch.
5 weeks, bring it on?
Pfft.

Reflection.

Dulu masa single hobi sebelum tidur is mengadap cermin  belai-belai rambut,
Pintal sana, simpul sini.
Coincidentally (& a lot of girls would agree) your hair always, ALWAYS look best just before going to sleep,
Or at least on days when you decide to stay home & no one would see it.
Tiba-tiba malam ni mood vain tu datang balik,
& yang paling best bukan menatap cermin,
Tapi menatap suami.
Hewhew.
Some recent events & conversations has lead me to realise that I have become.. Simple minded?
I can't quite place the exact word for it.
Like naive, lurus.
The things that used to drive me crazy, the external distractions, the what ifs,
They're so foreign now.
Anything other than Ikhwan is so foreign now.
& yang paling penting malam ni rambut aku behave & suami ada depan mata.
Tak perlu nak instagram dengan haghtag omagahrambutmacamoranggila & expect like cecah 3 angka.
Horhorhor