over the weekend, this happened:


so i haven't been blogging much. no, i haven't been online much.
i haven't been out much.
i haven't even been doing my work! (mainly 'cause i'm on my freakingly early "mid" semester break)


so yes. i'm tired as hell, though i don't really know why. mungkin sebab budak ni asyik..


whatever it is, welcome to Earth you little martian! from now on, we shall call you Layla Nasuha binti Hafetz :)

hilang segala inspirasi.





don't worry. i myself don't know what's wrong with me.

ada satu lubuk dalam hati aku. sangat jauh, sangat dalam. aku baru sedar, hanya muzik pernah sampai ke situ.

there is one characteristic of mine that i'm most thankful for. & that is my ability to seek for happiness anywhere, especially when i need it most. maybe to some, it appears that i take things lightly, that i forget easily. but honestly, what's the point in getting drowned in misery? or at least, i've drowned enough.

i guess this is the biggest lesson i've ever learnt in life. nobody but myself can make or break me. so yes sometimes what people do put me down. but i've learnt to put it aside. maybe not completely. maybe at the back of my mind, it still bugs me. but honestly, if someone bugs you that much, why keep that person right?

let's just say, recent events have put things into perspective for me. so so much. i'm just very thankful that i have the few people around me that brings me so much happiness that sometimes, i'm overwhelmed by it.

really people, all it takes is for you to be more aware of life's little surprises. because it's everywhere.




oh tapikan.. kenapa time aku nak blog ke, nak chat yang private-private sikit ke, ada je ibu bapa tersayang aku ni nak berdiri belakang aku lah, nak pakai computer lah. haa ini life's little surprises yang grr sikit. takpe, takpe. still living under their roof. tolerate lya, tolerate.

of crappy movies

harry potter & the half-blood prince...



... SUCKS BIG TIME!!!!

if i can get away with it, i'd rate it a "troll". & since this is my blog, i am rating it as "troll".

EPIC FAIL!

i remember having things to "compliment" the movie on, but that was before that completely redundant scene of bellatrix & greyback showing up at the burrow & setting it on fire. i'm pretty sure the burrow hasn't been burnt before (or even attacked, besides during fleur & bill's wedding in book 7), but if anyone think there is such an incident, please let me know. with information such as which book, chapter and/or page. pleeeease do.

but really. it was a complete waste of RM10. lucky me the "afterparty" was uplifting enough :P but let's keep that between us, imara ;P

i'm not single (i promise).

if i can't accept & love you for who you are..
if you can't accept & trust the person i am..
if we constantly wish the other person is somehow different..
if compromising doesn't make us happy..


then what's the point of this?


so.. taking a breather.
going our separate ways (for a while).
let us grow up with time.


& then.. we'll see.

of having so much to say but not enough time to do so

"wash away...
clean your body of me...
erase all the memories...
they'll only bring us pain...
& i've seen all i'll ever need."

from facebook chat, to just hanging out in your room, to walking around a park in the dark (& thinking a UFO is heading towards us) & to that last hug.
it's sinking in.
you're my best guy friend.
you're leaving.
you might not come back.
it's finally sinking in.



did you notice that our friendship is so pure that even satan couldn't come between us?
he had all those chance yet he never succeeded. i'd like to think he never even tried.



well.. take care aite? looking forward to the day when you decide to come home. (yes, i know you'll come home)

no lyrics doesn't have anything to do with tonight (or the whole day).

memerlukan boyfriend. maybe untuk malam ini sahaja, maybe untuk selama-lamanya. itu belum confirm. tapi qualification dia senang je: TIDAK MEROKOK SERTA TUNGGANG ARAK.

& the list goes on, actually

among the things that are making me hungry tonight:

1. LAW416 dapat exemption tak? bila transfer credit nak approve ni?
   
2. boleh tak aku ambik german, & if yes, boleh tak aku ambik dengan budak-budak AC220?
3. speaking of AC220, jijah & mereka yang lain kelas apa?
   
4. perlu bercakap dengan wan to ask for a favor from mama regarding german. A.S.A.P.!!
5. esok kena cari pejabat keselamatan to get car sticker
6. nak ambik car sticker kena bawak original birth cert je ke or kena photostat & sahkan sekali?
7. en. husni approve ke tak subjects yang aku dah penat-penat susun jadualnya ini?
8. then macam mana nak register for subjects from part 2 & 3 kalau kat student portal ada subjects part 1 je?
9. OH EMM GEE! group assignment IBM530 lupa nak form group tadi! -_-"
   

ok dah daaaah. minggu ni saja aku rasa 10 helai uban tumbuh.
ohh apa kaitan dengan rasa lapar? thinking takes up energy, thus making you hungry, didn't you know?

why does it bug me so much? i've always knew pun kan.


god hilyah, it's just a baju. GET OVER IT!


it's times like this that i can no longer question why it affects me so much. i have a strong (subconscious) memory. i get vivid dreams. i remember minute details. i remember you, oh so well. so well that it hurts.


**jika terasa confused, sila refer blog bertarikh february 10th, 2009.

jauh...

sungguh pelik bila..


.. muka-muka familiar dari perak buat aku rasa tenang di faculty.

.. rindu matthew (dan not so much orang lain) bila dilanda kecewa dengan "typicality" of uitm. (ok yang ni tak pelik sangat la. matthew kot)

.. dapat opportunity balik rumah awal, tapi aku wishing aku duduk college for the convenience of boleh pergi faculty anytime.


dan yang paling utama sekali,


.. aku sangat amat sungguh tak disangkal-sangkal lagi rindu uitm perak.
rindu berjalan ke faculty pagi, tengah hari dan petang.
rindu tak payah risau jam nak ke uitm, parking jauh dari faculty, bas tak ada.
rindu sambal belacan uptown, dan makan kat bilik dengan selesa.
rindu the intimacy and convenience of a small campus (yes SMALL compared to shah alam).
& of course, tak boleh lupa, rindu ikairakimepasyaliyk semuasemua!




this just needs getting used to lya. just needs getting used to.

salivating.



why? why else?
saya.
cinta.
matthew bellamy.

i want to be your endlessly.

i was ready to go to sleep more than an hour ago. facebook was boring, msn was boring. then i had to open google. & type "matthew bellamy". then i had to open youtube. & type "matthew bellamy". so. yes. 0313hrs, waiting for a few videos to load. i'm officially obsessed.




but honestly, what's not to be obsessed about right? haihh...

amazing how music can bring back what time has made u forget

ok. aku dah realize apa aku perlu malam ni. that feeling.

-over my head; the fray

the breakdown was unintentional. couldn't hold it in, attack dari kiri kanan. mimpi pelik 3 malam berturut-turut (especially that first night). situasi kurang selesa. hormones. tgif. maaf. my night was ruined at the first mention of "drink". survey tadi ada tanya "Found out who your true friends were" dan aku jawab "i think i get this realization everyday". sumpah, tak tipu.

at times like this, aku sedar aku tak ada tempat untuk mengadu.

sebenarnya.. blog aku yang ni bosan kan?


sangat.


call me weird, but i like my posts being personal. tapi macam tiada yang personal kat sini. tiada yang private. yang kalau certain-certain orang baca boleh jadi macam "OMFG she didn't just say thaaaaaat".


ah kau merepek apa malam-malam buta ni, hilyah?