2018 recap.

Might as well start on my 2018 recap.
This is in no specific order, just off the top of my head.
Turned 30.
Registered Hilwa for school, first time year end back to school shopping & got added into a class WhatsApp group #makjakun.
Spent 3 weeks in Singapore, which is perhaps the longest I've ever been away from home ever.
Celebrated Ikhwan's birthday in PD with the in laws.
Mama retired! Been enjoying home cooked food & a more relaxed & rested mama for almost two months now. Alhamdulillah at one point I was actually worried we might not get here huhu.
Got roses for my birthday. I think it's the second time ever I got flowers from Ikhwan. The first was during our engagement.
Finally found baking enjoyable. Well, I don't really remember if this happened this year or last but I can now say I have a pantry stocked with the basics & can throw a brownie together in a moment's notice. Didn't help that I constantly have desserts in the fridge though, which leads to my next point...
I'm the heaviest I've ever been outside of a pregnancy ever. It doesn't sound so bad when I say I've finally gained 10 kilos since I got married 6 years ago, but then about half of that weight I gained in this year alone. There's something about turning 30, I can literally feel my body becoming sluggish, creaky & my metabolism becoming shit.
It's not helping that Izzaz finally stopped breastfeeding. I really gotta start exercising seriously.
Oh yeah Hilwa also permanently went off the diaper earlier this year. She's been awesome, was wetting her bed for a while but then like magic she just stopped. We just have to be on guard on cold days or when she's really, really tired but otherwise I can only think of 2 accidents for the last 8 months or so.
Izzaz has also started sleeping in the kids' room with Hilwa these past few days. He doesn't really spend the whole night there but it's nice enough getting a few hours of peace, finally sleeping in the normal position on our queen bed (we've been sleeping horizontally for God knows how long coz the 2 kids refuses to sleep elsewhere).
Hmmm what else...
No new additions to either side of the family.
A few friends became first time parents, Wan is pregnant again. We've given up meeting outside, mostly going to Wan's house & foodpanda-ing lunch or having potluck at home with Ika & Sina. I never knew I could enjoy entertaining people at home lol.
I can't think of anything else for now but will always add if something pops up.
Added on 3rd Jan: I just remembered this is also the year where I learned about MRKH. Helped my brother's friend with her research by transcribing her interviews & between what was said in those audio files & researching for the correct terms/spelling for these new words I'm hearing, I ended up quite enlightened on the matter. Even did a little reading in my own time because I was so intrigued. Goes to show we really have no idea what people are going through in life. & this condition is not even that rare, it happens to 1 in 5000 females. I can definitely say I learnt something new in 2018.

Revelation.

I always put my day into a list of things I've accomplished.
The most I spend time doing is sorting the kids every day,
Which when the tasks are put together seem to be so little,
Feed, bathe, feed, play, bathe, feed, go back to sleep.
But why do I spend so much time on it?
Why do some days get so bad that I don't even manage to do anything else like tidy up the house or fold laundry?
& then today I realize,
That perhaps 90% of my time is spent saying 'hurry up, cepat, come let's go, can we please ____ first...'
& today that realization made me so damn exhausted lol.
It's 1435hours, I finally have some time to go shower.