Touchy.

My OnePlus 3 is dying.
I can no longer get a signal on it, so I've been living on WiFi/hotspot this past one week with my simcard in the kids' phone.
I honestly don't have any problems with this arrangement but I know it's not feasible in the long run to always bring the kids' phone out with me simply because I need to piggyback its hotspot.
Especially when I wanna go out without the kids lol.
So logical course of action is buying a new phone duh,
& it's making me feel so sad I can't even.
I thought maybe coz this was the first phone I owned after being a mother, & I'm all touchy feely clingy now but nahh..
Got the Nexus when I was pregnant with Hilwa & then the HTC E8 after that one,
Which reminds me, both went down in flames during my fits with the kids bahahaha!
Oh yes I had such a bad temper, I still do every once in a while,
But throwing around my phones when I lose it was normal.
I threw this OnePlus once too, I had it barely 9 months.
Busted the screen & cost me rm800 to replace. Or was it 900?
That was the last time I threw my phone bahahaha!
So I don't know if it's maturity, or simply because I've spent so much on this phone with all the fixes (I've even gone through the trouble of sending it to the service center for several days, collecting it unfixed with them telling me they can't do anything coz it's a China model aka not ori we don't layan, then drove to directd pulak, just to fix the volume button),
But yeah I'm sad.
I'm honestly not ready to part with it, I honestly thought I had at least another year of usage,
I'm borderline feeling like I'm about to give away one of my kids for no good reason.
& I'd go as far as saying I feel like there's no room in my heart to love a new phone bahaha
So I'm dragging it out as long as I can,
Taking my time to say goodbye,
& until Ikhwan makes the initiative to take me out & buy it, I'm not going to.
It'd be nice to suddenly be surprised with one though.. amidst a bed of rose petals on the bed or something bahahah
In the words of a friend, I miss being able to afford things with MY OWN MONEY haihh